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Besides being sick with a cold, I'm feeling so drained and crappy. There's an evil force hanging around me, sucking the life out of my body. I can't sleep, but I can't function because I'm missing out on sleep. I'm socially disabled, and I think that if I actually saw someone I knew, I would run in the opposite direction, crawl into the fetal position in some corner, and cry.
I've been feeling really badly about my teeth because my overbite is getting unbearable. I should have stuck with the braces when they were free, but now they'll cost $1200. I want to take ASL at Shoreline this summer, but I don't have $350 to spare right now. I need to pamper myself, but I don't have the time or energy.
When my mom told me how much the braces would be, I nearly cried. And then she casually leaned over and took the mouse, scrolling over my long email to Kate. I nearly freaked about her reading my personal stuff, and right now I feel like I don't trust anyone anymore. I almost cried, dammit.
I was home alone for a few hours and I actually couldn't read unless there was absolute quiet... I got a headache when the TV was on the lowest volume. American Pie was on and I could have puked just from watching. I cried when I read different parts in my book. I cried when I thought about how much school work I need to do tonight and tomorrow. My head ached when I thought about all of the work waiting for me at BOTH of my jobs.
I feel so dysfunctional and out of place; I can't breathe. There is something so wrong with me AGAIN and I don't know what to do...
I've been feeling really badly about my teeth because my overbite is getting unbearable. I should have stuck with the braces when they were free, but now they'll cost $1200. I want to take ASL at Shoreline this summer, but I don't have $350 to spare right now. I need to pamper myself, but I don't have the time or energy.
When my mom told me how much the braces would be, I nearly cried. And then she casually leaned over and took the mouse, scrolling over my long email to Kate. I nearly freaked about her reading my personal stuff, and right now I feel like I don't trust anyone anymore. I almost cried, dammit.
I was home alone for a few hours and I actually couldn't read unless there was absolute quiet... I got a headache when the TV was on the lowest volume. American Pie was on and I could have puked just from watching. I cried when I read different parts in my book. I cried when I thought about how much school work I need to do tonight and tomorrow. My head ached when I thought about all of the work waiting for me at BOTH of my jobs.
I feel so dysfunctional and out of place; I can't breathe. There is something so wrong with me AGAIN and I don't know what to do...