Hold your head up high you are never wrong; you would rather fight than walk a way
So it has almost been a month since I passed my test and bought my car. I have been driving non stop since. Way too much gas later and I am feeling more confidant in my driving and it is becoming second nature almost. In all honesty I haven't been doing so well this past week, actually I have been completely unhappy with everything and considering my bottle of tylenol with codeine as a solution, don't worry I dumped the tylenol and I had a really good chat with myself this morning in the car. Usually when I yell at myself it is inside my head but today I actually yelled out loud and grrred at myself. I have been very stupid and very silly in my own head and I should have known better. Now there isn't just one subject that has me this way it seemed this week that everything compiled on top of each other.
For instance my parental situation if you know me you know how unhappy I am on a regular basis with one or both of my parents but now I have made a decision and I am going to accept the consequences whatever they may be. School has also been on the mind and I have come to the conclusion of sticking with the original plans and doing what I set my mind to do which means I have to actually write and I am tired of making excuses I am going to do it or I am going to put my tail between my legs and be a freaking teacher which is the last thing I want to be. So this means getting on the ball, time to pick up my seminar books and to start preparing for the semester and working on a finished piece for graduate applications. Which also means picking up a prep book for the GRE's and sending out for some applications for grad schools and start taking some tours. I realize in some situations you can have your cake and eat it too, very few people believe this but I know I can pursue certain things and I don't have to give up on others. There is enough time and room in my life for my dreams to become reality in a more realistic sense while also settling and being happy with simplicity.
The solutions is of course following the advice everyone constantly gives me including my horoscope and in which no one ever really listens to. That is doing what I need to do for myself and doing what I want to do for myself. We will have to sit back and see how this goes because we all know nothing is ever simple when it comes to me.
For instance my parental situation if you know me you know how unhappy I am on a regular basis with one or both of my parents but now I have made a decision and I am going to accept the consequences whatever they may be. School has also been on the mind and I have come to the conclusion of sticking with the original plans and doing what I set my mind to do which means I have to actually write and I am tired of making excuses I am going to do it or I am going to put my tail between my legs and be a freaking teacher which is the last thing I want to be. So this means getting on the ball, time to pick up my seminar books and to start preparing for the semester and working on a finished piece for graduate applications. Which also means picking up a prep book for the GRE's and sending out for some applications for grad schools and start taking some tours. I realize in some situations you can have your cake and eat it too, very few people believe this but I know I can pursue certain things and I don't have to give up on others. There is enough time and room in my life for my dreams to become reality in a more realistic sense while also settling and being happy with simplicity.
The solutions is of course following the advice everyone constantly gives me including my horoscope and in which no one ever really listens to. That is doing what I need to do for myself and doing what I want to do for myself. We will have to sit back and see how this goes because we all know nothing is ever simple when it comes to me.