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So heres my life:
Im starting to feel kinda depressed when I should be getting excited. Im leaving for school (the place that makes me most happy) in four days and once I get there Ill get to see all my friends. Also once school starts on the thirteenth I'll be doing what I love best (singing and learning). So why am I not extatic or even anxious? The only thing I can think of is how much Im going to miss my Jessie and my Tiffany and all my other friends here. This year is going to be so different. Im going to miss a lot of school for college auditions(something i hate is missing school and a lot of my friends wont even be home if i were to come home for a weekend or something. Even Ashley probally couldnt do anything becuase she has cosmopoligy school on saturdays. grrr.
Then theres the stupid problem that hangs me up way too often and the one I pretend to be abouve. Boys. I absolutley detest myself for admiting that its even a problem. Its soo shitty to know that the one you like so much can never happen and the other(for lack of a better word) option lives way the fuck away. Yeah I know I said I wasnt really interested but I deffiantly caught myself thinking about him a little too much to ignor it. Damn Jessie why do you have to introduce me ot these boys. I think I only like this one because we had so much fun in the three days that we hung out with him and he was really funny and acually kinda sweet. Ok i cant believe im going on about this still.
I miss my old friends.
Im starting to feel kinda depressed when I should be getting excited. Im leaving for school (the place that makes me most happy) in four days and once I get there Ill get to see all my friends. Also once school starts on the thirteenth I'll be doing what I love best (singing and learning). So why am I not extatic or even anxious? The only thing I can think of is how much Im going to miss my Jessie and my Tiffany and all my other friends here. This year is going to be so different. Im going to miss a lot of school for college auditions(something i hate is missing school and a lot of my friends wont even be home if i were to come home for a weekend or something. Even Ashley probally couldnt do anything becuase she has cosmopoligy school on saturdays. grrr.
Then theres the stupid problem that hangs me up way too often and the one I pretend to be abouve. Boys. I absolutley detest myself for admiting that its even a problem. Its soo shitty to know that the one you like so much can never happen and the other(for lack of a better word) option lives way the fuck away. Yeah I know I said I wasnt really interested but I deffiantly caught myself thinking about him a little too much to ignor it. Damn Jessie why do you have to introduce me ot these boys. I think I only like this one because we had so much fun in the three days that we hung out with him and he was really funny and acually kinda sweet. Ok i cant believe im going on about this still.
I miss my old friends.