Life
I'm going to try an update more often on here, because I feel like this is a good way to keep track of my thoughts.
I've been in a good mood lately. I dont know why, but I have. Classes are going pretty well, I just got a job, and I've been having a lot of fun at school. However there is still this thing in the back of my mind that gets me frustrated with life. I dont know what it is but it seems to never go away. It's just like something is holding me back from truly enjoying my life. It could be a multitude of many things, one I believe is stress.
Things I am stressed about-
1. Money- overdrew my bank acct this weekend, got charged two fees. Ridic. So now I'm poor as poor can be, like I dont even have money to buy groceries. How pathetic is that. I can only blame this on myself though, because I have terrible spending habits. I know I do, and this was definitely a wake up call to get my shit together.
2. School- I need a 3.0 for my last two years to get into every grad school I've looked at. I have a 3.17 now so it shouldn't be hard to keep that up, but you never know what can happen. I feel like when I learn things I just learn them for the test and then forget them after I take it. It's just annoying. School is annoying. Not to mention I have 17 lame credits.
3. Work- just started a new job at Kohls, I'm a sales associate in the softlines dept ( misses, juniors, mens). Totally a legit job. The people are super nice, like the nicest bosses and coworkers I've ever had. I just really anjoy it there, but with every new job comes stress. Also, I just had an interview for the SIEO (student involvement and Employment office) job. I really want this job. Like it will help with what I want to do and I feel like I am a great candidate for it. I find out Thursday if I get it, I'm really hoping I do, but if I don't it will be one less thing I have to worry about.
4. Family- I just miss my family. I feel bad because my little brother is growing up and I feel like this is a time he needs good influences in his life and I know he really looks up to me and I'm not there to help him grow. I just don't want him to turn out like Cody, and I hope my mom can shape him into a good man. I miss my mom. I just get these morbid thoughts alot about my mom dying and how I just don't know how I would live if my mom died. I just want to spend time with her, because I feel like when I'm home I don't appreciate her enough. I miss Gladstone, never thought I'd say it. I don't ever want to live there again, but Gladstone is my home, it'll always hold that special place in my heart. I miss the lake and the beauty of the UP.
I guess my stressors are like any other college students. We all worry about the same stuff. College is just such a strange lifestyle. You're an adult but you're not.
I need to work on my Gender project. Slacking is definitely my worst quality.
I've been in a good mood lately. I dont know why, but I have. Classes are going pretty well, I just got a job, and I've been having a lot of fun at school. However there is still this thing in the back of my mind that gets me frustrated with life. I dont know what it is but it seems to never go away. It's just like something is holding me back from truly enjoying my life. It could be a multitude of many things, one I believe is stress.
Things I am stressed about-
1. Money- overdrew my bank acct this weekend, got charged two fees. Ridic. So now I'm poor as poor can be, like I dont even have money to buy groceries. How pathetic is that. I can only blame this on myself though, because I have terrible spending habits. I know I do, and this was definitely a wake up call to get my shit together.
2. School- I need a 3.0 for my last two years to get into every grad school I've looked at. I have a 3.17 now so it shouldn't be hard to keep that up, but you never know what can happen. I feel like when I learn things I just learn them for the test and then forget them after I take it. It's just annoying. School is annoying. Not to mention I have 17 lame credits.
3. Work- just started a new job at Kohls, I'm a sales associate in the softlines dept ( misses, juniors, mens). Totally a legit job. The people are super nice, like the nicest bosses and coworkers I've ever had. I just really anjoy it there, but with every new job comes stress. Also, I just had an interview for the SIEO (student involvement and Employment office) job. I really want this job. Like it will help with what I want to do and I feel like I am a great candidate for it. I find out Thursday if I get it, I'm really hoping I do, but if I don't it will be one less thing I have to worry about.
4. Family- I just miss my family. I feel bad because my little brother is growing up and I feel like this is a time he needs good influences in his life and I know he really looks up to me and I'm not there to help him grow. I just don't want him to turn out like Cody, and I hope my mom can shape him into a good man. I miss my mom. I just get these morbid thoughts alot about my mom dying and how I just don't know how I would live if my mom died. I just want to spend time with her, because I feel like when I'm home I don't appreciate her enough. I miss Gladstone, never thought I'd say it. I don't ever want to live there again, but Gladstone is my home, it'll always hold that special place in my heart. I miss the lake and the beauty of the UP.
I guess my stressors are like any other college students. We all worry about the same stuff. College is just such a strange lifestyle. You're an adult but you're not.
I need to work on my Gender project. Slacking is definitely my worst quality.