asking for help
So I just dont know what is wrong with me. I can't seem to climb out of this spiral of depression. I've lost my words, I cant even write anymore, that makes me feel so empty....wothless. I dont know what happened to me...i dont know how to get my life back. ... maybe i never had anything, it was all pretend.....i dont know how i ended up here and its so painful and so empty and dark.......i want my words back....
I dont ask much. i know my life is useless and pathetic....some things i cant fix, some i can.
I just want my words back, i want to write, to finish my stories, to start new ones. It helps so much to write.......I try and try but the words sound so ridiculous.
I'm really drowning here...and it breaks my heart. I feel so alone without my stories.
Not like there is anyone out there who would want to help me, I have fallen off the planet months ago, isolated myself and abandoned all of you. But if there is anyone out there still interested in helping me, then please do.
It's not in my nature to go begging for attention or help. But I'm so stuck here. I really want to be able to write. Maybe someone can help me, throw some ideas, read some drafts, give me a short prompt to get back on track, something, anything....
Ths is a pathetic post by a pathetic person...............i miss writing so much....i'm so stuck in this dark spiral of depression. If there is anyone wants to lend a hand, i know i cant expect it....but anyone out there well id be so grateful............and i promise not to drag you down with me........i just need a helping hand back on my feet.....
ok enough shameful begging for one day.............sorry for this pathetic selfish post............this is me, begging for some help from my place of self pitying darkness.............
Love you all, you have all helped and inspired me so much, i've given nothing back, i know i dont deserve how good you all are..........but im really drowning and im scared............and this is my last resort... thanks for listenning