lack of sleep
So last night I had to stay in and study for an exam, who would have thought that of course that night would be the loudest. Seriously though, there was some guy standing in the parking lot rapping for like 2 hours straight, and worst of all he sucked. The neighbors were thumpin' till 5 am. The other neighbors were on the balcony, soem people were running up and down the halls screaming "silience of the lambs." Basically, I got minimal sleep, which lead to me to completely anaylizing my life.
This year has been so out of control. So many things have happened that I cannot even begin to explain. Mostly good, but bad always finds a way in, especially when you least expect it. I really feel that I have made some great friends. My roommates couldn't be anymore wonderful and Meg has got some great ones too. I remember how scared I was to move in with 3 complete strangers, and yet I'm so happy with the results. I've also been able to let someone into my life in way that I never thought possible. I love every minute with him and I'm so happy to have found him.
I also feel that I probably have made some bad decisions throughout this year and no matter what I do, they seem to be unfixable. At first I was devastated and really upset, then I was just simply hurt and now I don't even know what to think. I'm beginning to learn, that maybe sometimes I just try too hard to fix things when maybe they don't want to be fixed at all. It's just something that is wearing on the inside of me and really eating me up. I hate this feeling, but I don't think it's up to me anymore.
On a lighter note, I cannot wait for the first snow to come!! And I'm actually really looking forward to heading out to S.D. for Thankgiving. I'm usually always happy to go, but some times a bit apprehensive. No matter what though, usually when I arrive I couldn't be happier.
Once again Halloween weekend at Michigan State rocked my world, looking forward to drinking some green popov on St. Patty's day. Although, last year's might be hard to compete with. I have no words to even describe it.
Ok well anyway....ski team party tonight....amburrr and I are going out in full force, don't worry Meg you shall be missed and more than likely drunkenly dialed.
adios kiddos
This year has been so out of control. So many things have happened that I cannot even begin to explain. Mostly good, but bad always finds a way in, especially when you least expect it. I really feel that I have made some great friends. My roommates couldn't be anymore wonderful and Meg has got some great ones too. I remember how scared I was to move in with 3 complete strangers, and yet I'm so happy with the results. I've also been able to let someone into my life in way that I never thought possible. I love every minute with him and I'm so happy to have found him.
I also feel that I probably have made some bad decisions throughout this year and no matter what I do, they seem to be unfixable. At first I was devastated and really upset, then I was just simply hurt and now I don't even know what to think. I'm beginning to learn, that maybe sometimes I just try too hard to fix things when maybe they don't want to be fixed at all. It's just something that is wearing on the inside of me and really eating me up. I hate this feeling, but I don't think it's up to me anymore.
On a lighter note, I cannot wait for the first snow to come!! And I'm actually really looking forward to heading out to S.D. for Thankgiving. I'm usually always happy to go, but some times a bit apprehensive. No matter what though, usually when I arrive I couldn't be happier.
Once again Halloween weekend at Michigan State rocked my world, looking forward to drinking some green popov on St. Patty's day. Although, last year's might be hard to compete with. I have no words to even describe it.
Ok well anyway....ski team party tonight....amburrr and I are going out in full force, don't worry Meg you shall be missed and more than likely drunkenly dialed.
adios kiddos