i never sleep
i'm suppose to be sleeping
but i realize as im' reading old post
that for one i hardly post
and for 2 its always about fucking boys
which my life consist of
god damn boys always giving me problems shit,
why can't they ever just leave me alone
for once i think i am staying single and not going or even going to try to date a guy
me and cory finally worked things out
and i have it the way that i wanted. just a booty call, shit man, if guys can do it, so can i. and look i did.
i have so many thoughts running through my head
i just made a lot of old post for me only because i was a fucking loser over one guy who completely lied to me and is forever treating his gf of like a year now like shit. which she deserves better.
i am very discontent with my life and want to get the fuck outta here and want to be done with guys and not date them, i dont want to date a guy i've had nothing but boyfriends for the past 2 years.
i am never single for a long period of time to just think and to do what i want to do with my life. not what some guy wants to do or wants me to do.
i need to get the fuck outta syracuse and start doing something with my life. from now on today i'm just going to start saving up my money, i really need to stop spending my money. it is really hard to not spend it but shit i know i can save it up. i have an ass load of bills that i shall be paying shortly but fuck it, i really dont care and i have insurance that i should probably cancel since i'm no longer on it. also i am probably not going to be getting a car anytime soon.
which means i really dont need the car insurance that i'm paying on every month.
me and my mother have to pay like 700$ to our old insurance company today..feb 2nd. and guess what she hasn't mentioned a word to me. oh well. tomorrow i'm going to ask her to cancel me off her insurance so i dont have to pay for a car i probably wont have for a rather long time.
i want it to be spring so i dont have to freeze anymore and so that way i can just walk everywhere, which i really do not mind, specially if its not extremely cold outside.
i'm failing in school, well not really the only class i gave up on was math, its to hard for me and i can't remember any of it, so i'm going to take a pre algebra class, big whoop, i need to brush up on my skillz. it shall help me out in the long run. in school i am also the VP! of the travel club and i have to be all official and shit on wednesday and recruit people, how awesome, i like travel club, it makes me happy.
its just about 3am i have to wake up in...oh probably 3 hours to drive my mother to work and to take her van, so i can get to school and then back home after to try and get some work done. and then pick her up before i have to scoot off to olive hell.
i really truly have no idea why i bother keeping up with this journal, no one reads about my life nor cares enough about it. and for one i dont tell people about it, i mean before i put the link every where, but i could care less now. one day people will read this and think i'm crazy, maybe...maybe not. i dont care anymore.
but i realize as im' reading old post
that for one i hardly post
and for 2 its always about fucking boys
which my life consist of
god damn boys always giving me problems shit,
why can't they ever just leave me alone
for once i think i am staying single and not going or even going to try to date a guy
me and cory finally worked things out
and i have it the way that i wanted. just a booty call, shit man, if guys can do it, so can i. and look i did.
i have so many thoughts running through my head
i just made a lot of old post for me only because i was a fucking loser over one guy who completely lied to me and is forever treating his gf of like a year now like shit. which she deserves better.
i am very discontent with my life and want to get the fuck outta here and want to be done with guys and not date them, i dont want to date a guy i've had nothing but boyfriends for the past 2 years.
i am never single for a long period of time to just think and to do what i want to do with my life. not what some guy wants to do or wants me to do.
i need to get the fuck outta syracuse and start doing something with my life. from now on today i'm just going to start saving up my money, i really need to stop spending my money. it is really hard to not spend it but shit i know i can save it up. i have an ass load of bills that i shall be paying shortly but fuck it, i really dont care and i have insurance that i should probably cancel since i'm no longer on it. also i am probably not going to be getting a car anytime soon.
which means i really dont need the car insurance that i'm paying on every month.
me and my mother have to pay like 700$ to our old insurance company today..feb 2nd. and guess what she hasn't mentioned a word to me. oh well. tomorrow i'm going to ask her to cancel me off her insurance so i dont have to pay for a car i probably wont have for a rather long time.
i want it to be spring so i dont have to freeze anymore and so that way i can just walk everywhere, which i really do not mind, specially if its not extremely cold outside.
i'm failing in school, well not really the only class i gave up on was math, its to hard for me and i can't remember any of it, so i'm going to take a pre algebra class, big whoop, i need to brush up on my skillz. it shall help me out in the long run. in school i am also the VP! of the travel club and i have to be all official and shit on wednesday and recruit people, how awesome, i like travel club, it makes me happy.
its just about 3am i have to wake up in...oh probably 3 hours to drive my mother to work and to take her van, so i can get to school and then back home after to try and get some work done. and then pick her up before i have to scoot off to olive hell.
i really truly have no idea why i bother keeping up with this journal, no one reads about my life nor cares enough about it. and for one i dont tell people about it, i mean before i put the link every where, but i could care less now. one day people will read this and think i'm crazy, maybe...maybe not. i dont care anymore.