this is the longest post, im sure
i had profound things to say last night but my book was too good and my bed was too warm to type them all up or write them all down. so you'll just get to hear my random rambling tonight. lots of things happened/are happening and change is good; i'm really not holding onto anything anymore so i'm ready for change this time around. last weekish i went to california for tim and grace's wedding and time with clare and tess. i knew the Lord was working on my heart before going out there because of all the conflict that was happening around me. when i arrived in los angeles i got a phone call from my mom saying that over a thousand dollars of my money had been stolen out of my room. i really wish i could say that i just said "okay Lord" but i freaked out...sitting in lax alone crying wasnt what i had planned upon arriving. the part that really hurt me was that the person who i knew had stolen it had been in my room and i knew them as a friend. i think after the initial shock the Lord really got my attention. i had been saving all of that money to hopefully go to china in the summer with clare and i had become so focused on earning MY money and forming MY plans that i forgot about the Lord and whether this was even something HE had called me to. I remember before I left Austria praying that I would trust the Lord to provide all my needs as He sent me out. Funny thing is on the plane over to cali i was listening to chuck talk about him telling the Lord that as long as He worked out the financial part he would serve the Lord in whatever way He wanted him to. So being completely broken I can say that I think this is a major blessing because I know that He will provide and in Him doing so He will receive all the glory.
I've also as of late become restless at my job I feel like I'm ready to move on but I dont know if its time. I have been praying about starting a job at a daycare where I would work with children during the day and then have nights off. Of course as soon as I consider this my manager at OG tells me they are going to train me in the next couple of weeks to be a bartender...which I dont even know how I feel about being a bartender. I've already worked in the bar alot with Sharon but I feel like I need to be leading by example and I'm not sure what people would think if I was in a bar making drinks?
I seen Neil and Anya at church sunday morning and they sat with me and it made me miss Hungary..I love them both so much and i'm so happy their married now.
i think thats all i have to say. friday my family plus the wilson family plus brad and jason(maybe) are going to IOA and getting year long passes which will be excitingly fun--i cant wait. i want to have fun with friends. i hate seeing friends fall and not being able to help them, knowing they have made their choice. i am suprised to hear that my friend is moving out and hasnt even told me...REAL cool. other things...enough is enough. time for some cheerios. mwah ! <3
I've also as of late become restless at my job I feel like I'm ready to move on but I dont know if its time. I have been praying about starting a job at a daycare where I would work with children during the day and then have nights off. Of course as soon as I consider this my manager at OG tells me they are going to train me in the next couple of weeks to be a bartender...which I dont even know how I feel about being a bartender. I've already worked in the bar alot with Sharon but I feel like I need to be leading by example and I'm not sure what people would think if I was in a bar making drinks?
I seen Neil and Anya at church sunday morning and they sat with me and it made me miss Hungary..I love them both so much and i'm so happy their married now.
i think thats all i have to say. friday my family plus the wilson family plus brad and jason(maybe) are going to IOA and getting year long passes which will be excitingly fun--i cant wait. i want to have fun with friends. i hate seeing friends fall and not being able to help them, knowing they have made their choice. i am suprised to hear that my friend is moving out and hasnt even told me...REAL cool. other things...enough is enough. time for some cheerios. mwah ! <3