i cant belive he just got up and left

[carly_anne14]

i cant belive he did it i really cant belive he finaly did what he said he would one day do i cant belive that he finaly got up and left.

today i realised how much i love my brother matthew.

i never thought he would really do it, but he did.

i cant belive he just got up and said sorry mum but im moving to dads im goign to ring dad now and go live with him.

i cant belive he did it.

i cant belive collin yelled at him.

i cant belive the way collin spoked to my brother.

i just cant belive it all.

why did this have to happen when me and my brother were starting to get close agian and had stop fighting as much why now, now how are we spose to make up for the years where we fighted all the time. i know i still can he is only at dads but still. he has only been gone for like half an hour and i miss him like hell all ready

now what am i spose to do?

i dont have a big brother to sick up for me at home.

does this now mean that ill get more shit because im the only one left?

i now feel like my heart has been riped out even more!!
first dad left
then naomi
then adrian
now matthew
what now, what else could go wrong?
god i dont want to know.

any how i better go find some thing to take my minde off things and to try to stop crying.
ok bye bye all love carly