stressed
So things are a little better. Brad and I have been to busy to really stop and think about things that happened. That is probably good. I have a few friends that were totally awesome thru all of that mess, thank you guys so much! Brad was having trouble keeping it together for a while but we made it. God is good.
So we close on our house on Wed. That is super exciting. I guess the house we are living in now already has a renter lined up. That is pretty cool. They are moving in the day we move out. We have to be at the bank at 11:00 on Wed. morning and we are moving in right after that. Emily is getting a shampooer and we are doing the carpets at the new and old house. We will be super busy for a few days. Brad and I went garage saling the other day and we got a washer and dryer for 50 bucks. We also got a chest freezer that works perfect for like 20 bucks. We scored. Now the only thing we need is a dishwasher. I wouldn't worry about it but there is already a huge hole under the counter and it looks sort of...ghetto with nothing in there.
Well I talked to my step-mom today hoping maybe she would offer to help us move since Brad and I packed, AND helped her and dad move. Nah, didn't happen. Instead she went on about how they were going to see HER daughter in Wisconsin for Camden's baptism. I then let her know that they never let me know when anything is. She shut up after that. I'm trying so hard to keep my head up and not let anything bother me but it is getting so hard. I have negative crap all around me. Emily had someone bounce a check to her which in turn bounced her check to me and it took forever for me to get that money back. I hate not having money that I was planning on having. She has been really down and tired which means when shes home sleeping we have to be quiet. It is pretty challenging. I can only be quiet for so long. Also she is having financial problems and it really worries me that she will be living with us but not paying stuff on time. We have to be able to count on our roommate to have money for bills if we are going to have a roommate. Extra people equals extra electric and higher bills. Which means we gotta have the money on time to cover their part. We also can't afford groceries for everyone, or toilet paper, ect. It all adds up so fast. If we were rich we wouldn't mind but we can only provide for us. We are saving for the day we have a baby, so when we do have extra money that is where it goes. When that time comes Brad will get an extra job and by then I will be done with school so I'll be making some better money too. Okay I'm rambling. Point is, Brad pays his way, I pay mine, and I hope Emily's money situation gets better so we can count on her part on time too. I guess we will see over time. I just don't understand how someone can make more than I do in an entire month, and have problems keeping stuff paid. I don't have an expensive vehicle granted, but if I couldn't afford it I wouldn't have it. I like my cheap insurance, and tags. If I did own an expensive car and couldn't keep stuff paid, I'd be OFFERING to sell it even if that's all I had. You can always start over. Ugh. Stress.
Once we move I'm sure things will be better I just...need it to be done so I can relax. I have enough stuff of my own going on and when everyone elses stuff reflects on me I just can't do it. I've been dealing with to much lately. Anyway, we have things pretty much packed. Our dining room looks like we love bananas because of all the banana boxes. Haha. My mom has been really helpful with all of this stuff. I have to call the electric, gas, and cable company and get things turned on at the new house. That shall be fun. Atleast I was smart and put the money away to get that switched a long time ago. Well not much else is going on. Things will look up. This entry seems like I'm depressed but I'm doing fine. Moving is just..crazy. I will keep ya'll updated though. I love you Bradley.
p.s-my twin I never had is Janee'. I decided this.
So we close on our house on Wed. That is super exciting. I guess the house we are living in now already has a renter lined up. That is pretty cool. They are moving in the day we move out. We have to be at the bank at 11:00 on Wed. morning and we are moving in right after that. Emily is getting a shampooer and we are doing the carpets at the new and old house. We will be super busy for a few days. Brad and I went garage saling the other day and we got a washer and dryer for 50 bucks. We also got a chest freezer that works perfect for like 20 bucks. We scored. Now the only thing we need is a dishwasher. I wouldn't worry about it but there is already a huge hole under the counter and it looks sort of...ghetto with nothing in there.
Well I talked to my step-mom today hoping maybe she would offer to help us move since Brad and I packed, AND helped her and dad move. Nah, didn't happen. Instead she went on about how they were going to see HER daughter in Wisconsin for Camden's baptism. I then let her know that they never let me know when anything is. She shut up after that. I'm trying so hard to keep my head up and not let anything bother me but it is getting so hard. I have negative crap all around me. Emily had someone bounce a check to her which in turn bounced her check to me and it took forever for me to get that money back. I hate not having money that I was planning on having. She has been really down and tired which means when shes home sleeping we have to be quiet. It is pretty challenging. I can only be quiet for so long. Also she is having financial problems and it really worries me that she will be living with us but not paying stuff on time. We have to be able to count on our roommate to have money for bills if we are going to have a roommate. Extra people equals extra electric and higher bills. Which means we gotta have the money on time to cover their part. We also can't afford groceries for everyone, or toilet paper, ect. It all adds up so fast. If we were rich we wouldn't mind but we can only provide for us. We are saving for the day we have a baby, so when we do have extra money that is where it goes. When that time comes Brad will get an extra job and by then I will be done with school so I'll be making some better money too. Okay I'm rambling. Point is, Brad pays his way, I pay mine, and I hope Emily's money situation gets better so we can count on her part on time too. I guess we will see over time. I just don't understand how someone can make more than I do in an entire month, and have problems keeping stuff paid. I don't have an expensive vehicle granted, but if I couldn't afford it I wouldn't have it. I like my cheap insurance, and tags. If I did own an expensive car and couldn't keep stuff paid, I'd be OFFERING to sell it even if that's all I had. You can always start over. Ugh. Stress.
Once we move I'm sure things will be better I just...need it to be done so I can relax. I have enough stuff of my own going on and when everyone elses stuff reflects on me I just can't do it. I've been dealing with to much lately. Anyway, we have things pretty much packed. Our dining room looks like we love bananas because of all the banana boxes. Haha. My mom has been really helpful with all of this stuff. I have to call the electric, gas, and cable company and get things turned on at the new house. That shall be fun. Atleast I was smart and put the money away to get that switched a long time ago. Well not much else is going on. Things will look up. This entry seems like I'm depressed but I'm doing fine. Moving is just..crazy. I will keep ya'll updated though. I love you Bradley.
p.s-my twin I never had is Janee'. I decided this.