yeah so i've decided...
to give up. my life, mostly because of this past weekend, is so complicated. and i hate it. why cant life just be simple? as derek sed "then things would be boring and you would have no character" i guess to come extent i believe that but cant we just have small little problems that can be solved in minutes? HA cuz that would mean life was fair...and easy but as padre always told me "life aint fair kiddo" and then got that goofy little smile on his face that i miss so much....
which leads me to my next point of diccussion...im starting to realized just how much i miss him. ok so im gonna start crying if i go any further with this sooooo ill finish later...good night all.
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