are you happy now?
What defines being happy? How do you know that you have it? Or you are happy? How do you know that what makes you happy today will or won’t make you happy tomorrow?
Your decisions today influence what decisions you will make tomorrow. But, how do you know what makes you happy today will continue to make you happy tomorrow? Or that, even if you are upset and unhappy, your decisions will work out and you will be happy? Is it all just putting hope in the fact your decisions/feelings will turn out right?
When you make your decision, you have no idea that it will be right. You only know the decision is right because at the time you made it, it was right. It’s how I live my life-with no regrets. It doesn’t matter what I do, I do not regret any decision I have ever made (or ever will). But I am not sure if that decision to live my life like that has truly made me happy. At times, I think that it might have been a good idea to take things back but in retrospect, you never can do that. There is no time machine to go back in time to change things you have done and there is no time machine to go forward in time to see if you have made the right decision. You have to be happy with what you have chosen to do, no matter how difficult that may be at the time.
Even if you are not happy, you can pretend to be happy. Me, well, it might not be known by many people, but I am pretty good at doing that (or at least I think I am). I can hide my feelings of “unhappiness” much better than I think I can hide other things. I do not know where it comes from-the hiding and the thinking there is something to be unhappy about. Well, okay, lie, I know the hiding comes from the lack of wanting to show my emotion because that is who I am. Only a few can be let in, but that is a different story. But the unhappy? I don’t know. Shouldn’t you just be happy all the time? Because you have made the decision that is best for you, right? So you should always be happy.
You have to go through pain to get to the happiness. Without the pain, then you can’t see your growth and why you have become happy. So, then, is happiness just what comes out of pain? Do you have to go through pain (and only something like that) to be extremely happy? Do you have to have growth to be happy? It seems like that sometimes. You have to go through something that makes you so upset so you can see that you are better off with what you have done.
For a long time, I thought having a boyfriend would define me and make me happy. And it did. I was extremely happy, until he broke up with me. I was devastated. It was so hard for me to get over him, but eventually I did and I thought I was happy again. I moved on. I then started thinking that maybe it’s not the boyfriend that defines how happy you are. It’s not the friends that define your happiness, or anyone.
Your happiness cannot depend on anyone else but yourself. But you really have to know yourself to be truly happy, or to start to see some progress within yourself. But, no one is as happy as they seem (or at least from what I have noticed). You can be perfectly excited and happy in certain situations about certain things, but you aren’t truly, 100% happy. There will always be something keeping you from your happiness-have it be you not telling someone why you are upset or not telling someone why you are frustrated, or still being in a situation that you want out of. But how are you to overcome this? Do you stay what you call “happy” and not tell someone how you feel or do you change things around and become happy by telling them everything, divulging all of your information so they know where you are coming from instead of keeping it inside. Does that even make a difference though?
I think, all in all, you can never be truly happy. Something will always be there that will make you never succeed to true happiness. Now I could be completely off base and tomorrow decide I am wrong, but I really do believe no one can be happy. It sucks to hear, and I’m sure you disagree, but it’s not possible.