"...we're practically sisters. I am so glad we have this friendship, and I hope it lasts..."
didnt go to school today. Lunch & gym = no point in being there. so i got needed rest.
didnt do anything really...talked 2 Whit for practically forever on the phone. couldnt do anything cuz she had to go to the mall w/ her sister. but it was okay anyway. i called JFO later and she couldnt chill, but we might do something tomorrow after work in the morning. i hate having no life...
so i cleaned out my closet. no surprise, i didnt get rid of too much, but i created mucho space and im a lil more organized now...which is a plus. so i didnt WASTE the day. ooo extra points for me.
while cleaning, i found so many memories. pictures, notes, stupid little things from my immature years in GW. practically everything had to do with that crush of mine, or school, or me being a horrible math student. and i wondered why the hell i would bother to save such worthless things. but they're not that worthless, i mean the people who said "someday you'll look back and laugh" werent kidding. because when i looked at this stuff, i laughed. i laughed because i realized how much of an idiot i was, and how little i knew about the world around me. i laughed at those things, and cried at others. i found a note from Chrissy. she gave it to me at Xmas her freshman year. it talked about how glad she was that we were so close, like sisters, and how she'd value the friendship forever. and i couldnt help but feel that she and i arent as close...and i found myself wishing it were different. and there are so many people who i lost as close friends. and the thing that bothers me is, i dont know how or why i lost them.
i just want them back.
i guess cleaning does more than make your room nicer. it makes you realize things you didnt realize before.
<3
didnt do anything really...talked 2 Whit for practically forever on the phone. couldnt do anything cuz she had to go to the mall w/ her sister. but it was okay anyway. i called JFO later and she couldnt chill, but we might do something tomorrow after work in the morning. i hate having no life...
so i cleaned out my closet. no surprise, i didnt get rid of too much, but i created mucho space and im a lil more organized now...which is a plus. so i didnt WASTE the day. ooo extra points for me.
while cleaning, i found so many memories. pictures, notes, stupid little things from my immature years in GW. practically everything had to do with that crush of mine, or school, or me being a horrible math student. and i wondered why the hell i would bother to save such worthless things. but they're not that worthless, i mean the people who said "someday you'll look back and laugh" werent kidding. because when i looked at this stuff, i laughed. i laughed because i realized how much of an idiot i was, and how little i knew about the world around me. i laughed at those things, and cried at others. i found a note from Chrissy. she gave it to me at Xmas her freshman year. it talked about how glad she was that we were so close, like sisters, and how she'd value the friendship forever. and i couldnt help but feel that she and i arent as close...and i found myself wishing it were different. and there are so many people who i lost as close friends. and the thing that bothers me is, i dont know how or why i lost them.
i just want them back.
i guess cleaning does more than make your room nicer. it makes you realize things you didnt realize before.
<3