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i acutlayl write in a real journal.. and i felt that this little tid bit was worth noting here because it somehow means a lot to me..
"before i go memorize four units of vocab, i must filter through some of my thoughts. i want to be happy. we all wwant to be happy. but what is happiness? im so scared that im not going to die without finding my own happiness, my own relieft, my own perfect something here on earth. i've encountered so many amazing people that have helped shape the person i am today- but also- ive met some people that force me to doubt all mankind. are we corrupt/ uncorrupt? i dont know. but i do know lots of guys. i feel so violated that most guys just want to get into a girls pants. but at the same time i realize i am a total hypocrite. i act the same way. damn this vicious cycle of sexually driven lives..."
it continues more.. but basically.. something really big is missing- i want on call ass and im sick of relationships and people getting hurt, but i also dont have time in my life to deal with another person's issues as well as my own.
bleh... loomis sexual frustration .. not hot
"before i go memorize four units of vocab, i must filter through some of my thoughts. i want to be happy. we all wwant to be happy. but what is happiness? im so scared that im not going to die without finding my own happiness, my own relieft, my own perfect something here on earth. i've encountered so many amazing people that have helped shape the person i am today- but also- ive met some people that force me to doubt all mankind. are we corrupt/ uncorrupt? i dont know. but i do know lots of guys. i feel so violated that most guys just want to get into a girls pants. but at the same time i realize i am a total hypocrite. i act the same way. damn this vicious cycle of sexually driven lives..."
it continues more.. but basically.. something really big is missing- i want on call ass and im sick of relationships and people getting hurt, but i also dont have time in my life to deal with another person's issues as well as my own.
bleh... loomis sexual frustration .. not hot