Ottawa Sucks...
I quit. This is too hard. I hate being in a new city with new people.
I went for my job interview today, but I have really no clue as to whether I got the job or not. The manager didn't seem to interested in interviewing. He didn't ask many questions and half the time didn't even make eye contact with me. Strange. I found out if I take this job I have to be available a minimum of 20 hours a week. I don't really want to work that many but he said just because I have 20 hours of availability doesn't mean I'll be working 20 hours. I dunno. I'm not going to worry about that until I get offered the job.
I'm having a rough day today. I guess cause it's Saturday and I don't really have anything I need to do so my minds been able to wander a bit more. This means that I end up thinking thoughts like "Noone likes me.". Yep, that's exactly what I'm thinking today. I was supposed to go out with Cheryl for dinner or something but that fell through as she had to stay home for some reason. I cried when I got off the phone. I'm just a mess of emotions I guess. I'm supposed to go out tonight with Veronica to the bar but they haven't called yet. I fear if I don't hear from then I'll spend the entire night crying thinking about how lonely I am. This sucks. I think the worst part is I know if I was home and I wasn't going out tonight I wouldn't be this sad. It's just different here I guess. I feel like if I'm home too much then I'm a loser. Ugh...
This better get easier....
I went for my job interview today, but I have really no clue as to whether I got the job or not. The manager didn't seem to interested in interviewing. He didn't ask many questions and half the time didn't even make eye contact with me. Strange. I found out if I take this job I have to be available a minimum of 20 hours a week. I don't really want to work that many but he said just because I have 20 hours of availability doesn't mean I'll be working 20 hours. I dunno. I'm not going to worry about that until I get offered the job.
I'm having a rough day today. I guess cause it's Saturday and I don't really have anything I need to do so my minds been able to wander a bit more. This means that I end up thinking thoughts like "Noone likes me.". Yep, that's exactly what I'm thinking today. I was supposed to go out with Cheryl for dinner or something but that fell through as she had to stay home for some reason. I cried when I got off the phone. I'm just a mess of emotions I guess. I'm supposed to go out tonight with Veronica to the bar but they haven't called yet. I fear if I don't hear from then I'll spend the entire night crying thinking about how lonely I am. This sucks. I think the worst part is I know if I was home and I wasn't going out tonight I wouldn't be this sad. It's just different here I guess. I feel like if I'm home too much then I'm a loser. Ugh...
This better get easier....