please i just need you to fake it
so this is whats up. my heart is breaking and i have no idea what to do to stop it,
this obsession is controlling my life. i havent had it this bad since nick.
thinking of his kiss stops my heart. i feel it lingering on my lips. i cant take it.
its like taunting a child with candy or teasing a pms'ing women with chocolate, its like being on your period and wanting sex so bad. its like wanting drugs the day before your piss test, its like being one number off from winning the 111 million dollor lottery. ok so i think you might have an idea of the pain im talking about. fucking charles knows how to hurt me, he doesnt want me but he doesnt want jason to have me, its not fucking fair, me and him are dead let me go, i care about him and i tried making it work. god knows ive tried but he could care less. ive cried and cried everyday this weak he couldnt careless he got up and walked out last night. im sure he went to jasons. didnt tell me he was leaving bye ill be back nothing, didnt even look back, so carla didnt even get dinner last night. asshole. i hate that im staying with him and im too stubborn to go back to moms so i have to put up with it. i just wish he would have told me he didnt want me there, it would have made things so much easier.
but its ok, i have nothing to do all weekend but comminse to get alcohol poisoning from the bottle of tequila i shall drink. hopefully i can see jason and talk somethings out. i gotta try and stay drug free, its gonna be hard but i always have alcohol :(
anyways thats whats new, the big 22 is coming up im only about 12 days away :) dont yall forget now :P
love me
this obsession is controlling my life. i havent had it this bad since nick.
thinking of his kiss stops my heart. i feel it lingering on my lips. i cant take it.
its like taunting a child with candy or teasing a pms'ing women with chocolate, its like being on your period and wanting sex so bad. its like wanting drugs the day before your piss test, its like being one number off from winning the 111 million dollor lottery. ok so i think you might have an idea of the pain im talking about. fucking charles knows how to hurt me, he doesnt want me but he doesnt want jason to have me, its not fucking fair, me and him are dead let me go, i care about him and i tried making it work. god knows ive tried but he could care less. ive cried and cried everyday this weak he couldnt careless he got up and walked out last night. im sure he went to jasons. didnt tell me he was leaving bye ill be back nothing, didnt even look back, so carla didnt even get dinner last night. asshole. i hate that im staying with him and im too stubborn to go back to moms so i have to put up with it. i just wish he would have told me he didnt want me there, it would have made things so much easier.
but its ok, i have nothing to do all weekend but comminse to get alcohol poisoning from the bottle of tequila i shall drink. hopefully i can see jason and talk somethings out. i gotta try and stay drug free, its gonna be hard but i always have alcohol :(
anyways thats whats new, the big 22 is coming up im only about 12 days away :) dont yall forget now :P
love me