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alright im doin some exciting math homework...fuck that shit im failing n e way lol. seriously y the hell do i need this bullshit if im goin to be a fucking cook. thats right sit on my fat ass and make food. sounds exciting.
ever feel like no matter what, ur just not good enough. everyone looks at me with a look of repulsion whenever i say im agnostic. but seriously why should i even try to comprehend the understandings of god. i mean how can one "being" enflict so much pain and depression on one person. everythings falling apart. my 2 best friends both have boyfriends. whenever i talk to them, this is if i can talk to them. they are always either talking about there guys, with there guys, or talking to there guys. now dont get me wrong i love them and im so glad that there happy but it just kinda makes me feel like shit. i naturally have no one but thats not a surprise.not to mention my family sucks. consistently calling me a whore or a tease o and we cant forget the infamous LIAR! yea occasionally i like to be belittle and ridiculed to the point of tears...NOT! then joy theres school and let me tell u thats a hoot n a half, math is gay i dont understand n e thing and that goes along with Chemistry 3. so pretty much as a result of wallowing in my own self pity, my grades went from As and Bs to Cs and Ds. so yippy! But i guess the thing thats mainly draggin me down is the goddamn guy thing. the fact that i still have feelings for my Ex and then to always c him with his girlfriend and hear about how much they love eachother and then to hear my friends talk about how they love there boyfriends and then its like O hey Hi How ya doin im single....like always...
ok enuf with the self pity...though it is what i do best lol
ever feel like no matter what, ur just not good enough. everyone looks at me with a look of repulsion whenever i say im agnostic. but seriously why should i even try to comprehend the understandings of god. i mean how can one "being" enflict so much pain and depression on one person. everythings falling apart. my 2 best friends both have boyfriends. whenever i talk to them, this is if i can talk to them. they are always either talking about there guys, with there guys, or talking to there guys. now dont get me wrong i love them and im so glad that there happy but it just kinda makes me feel like shit. i naturally have no one but thats not a surprise.not to mention my family sucks. consistently calling me a whore or a tease o and we cant forget the infamous LIAR! yea occasionally i like to be belittle and ridiculed to the point of tears...NOT! then joy theres school and let me tell u thats a hoot n a half, math is gay i dont understand n e thing and that goes along with Chemistry 3. so pretty much as a result of wallowing in my own self pity, my grades went from As and Bs to Cs and Ds. so yippy! But i guess the thing thats mainly draggin me down is the goddamn guy thing. the fact that i still have feelings for my Ex and then to always c him with his girlfriend and hear about how much they love eachother and then to hear my friends talk about how they love there boyfriends and then its like O hey Hi How ya doin im single....like always...
ok enuf with the self pity...though it is what i do best lol