update
my christmas sucked watching traditions fall apart and tears flow from my eyeswatching my uncle take over my dads ritual of making breakfast... and then not seeing my brother.... he decided not to come... havent seen him since two weeks after my dad died... so my sister called him and yelled and now i swear im never gunna see him. i hate christmas i hate sitting there and everyone being so happy and my wanting to punch them in there faces.... but it happens