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ok first of all my body hurts so bad and i am in so much pain...... next thing
i am so confused...im all mixed up and might i add i hate guys if ur a guy and ur reading this i have one thing to say: YOU SUCK!!! i wish u were unconfusing!...im torn between decisions and the way that i deal with my relationships...what relationships? im not one for them and i feel bad because i always end up hurting ppl that i really care about all due to the fact that i just cant do relationships. i kno that this will probably sound a little whoreish but im just more used to friends with benefits...no one has ever really wanted a relationship with me...they just want to make out or somethin...so naturally thats what im used too.just havin a good time...in a platonic way... when someone actually wants to attempt a relationship with me it just doesnt work because im only with one person and thats a little weird for me because ..well...if u kno me then u kno that i am a flirt and i cant help but do that, so when i dont do it its just really weird for me and i dont kno what to do and im just used to how my life used to be. i dont kno if n e of this makes any sense but im trying. all i have ever wanted was a committed relationship with someone but i kno that i cant have that due to the fact that...well im fucked up. and i cant help that fact and im sry . im really sorry . and i am trying to change after a talk that i had.
love ya
Carri