yea
ok wow for a while i was actually naive to think everything was going pretty good... i was happy for once in a very long time... and just like before my happiness slowly dwindled away in front of me. why is it everything i want is so close yet so far away... so thats when my attitude of ......fuck it....... came about.
so today was the choir rehersal and it was fucked and tomorrows spring fever and i wanted to skip it but its my fucking choir concert which is goin to suck.... like everything else... ok pity party has been completed
love ya
carri