aimless musings
its 3:36 am....i dunno why im still up and writing on this thing....i think i just need to vent out...and of course writing helps me out...it sure does....i go crazy sometimes...thinking so much...like now...i cant thinking about certain things and it will bother me for like a long time....its annoying....but i cant stop that irritatingly irritating habit of mine....its january 17 and only months to go before school ends....i wonder whats in store for me in the coming school year....new school? new lovelife? what? i dunno....do you? haha...im goin crazy again....hehe...so ok....i just want to repost something i wrote about a year ago in another online journal....its a special piece ive written...its my thoughts about a certain guy i really liked....up to now....but he doesnt have a single clue....talk about dense.....i really really really really like him and i dont think id really get over him or like another guy as i like him....but lifes really like that....haay...here goes:
CARLA"S THOUGHTS
There are nights when i just can sleep and i have to think and write about things i think about. this night is among many others when i just had to jot something down and share it with my closest friends...you...naturally. so what is this thing all about? nothing really...but i think im overly in love with things...errr...people...err....person...im sure you know him. the real deal is i like him but liking slash "crushing" on him made me realize a lot of things...about life and loving and other senti things like that. first...i learned that you cannot make everyone like you. different people have different choices and you won't always be the choice that the other person will make. we just have to accept that losing is a part of life...we just have to bear with it...second...i learned that there will always be people who get in your way...you may be annoyed or pissed off at them but they will always be there trying to make everything harder for you....but hey...these people make our life "exciting" right? you don't have to do anything about it...because you can't do anything about it anyway...these people will forever be there...annoying you...bugging you...making you jealous and stuff like that...third...i also learned that loving (syet ang corni) can be such a wonderful experience....gives you a new perspective on life....inspiration...and eagerness to start a new day everyday....being in love makes you feel important or beautiful or just simply happy because just the thought of having someone you like being near you is enough to sustain you for the rest of the day....but then (here's the sad part) you find out that there's no hope in being together...and you have to accept the truth...that there will never be anything between th etwo of you....and that's ok....thats part of life....the sea is vast and there are lots of fishes waiting to be caught....though your head tells you to move on...your heart is left behind on the person whom you gave so much time and attention to. thats ok...time heals all wounds...everything must move on...sure as the sun brings the sunrise...I will always have the memory of liking that person and when the day comes that I am completely over him, i think ill just laugh my head off...but the memory will always remain...o my god....this is getting so silly....im sure you are laughing already....i sound like a lovesick idiot....it doesn't matter...i really am....hehehe....im still thinking of something.....oh....this one is from my profile in friendster...i also wrote it....hehehehehe.....SOMETIMES, LIFE CAN BE TOUGH. YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO LEARN AND UNLEARN TO LOVE PEOPLE...BUT ITS ALWAYS HARD TO FORGET...ITS ALWAYS HARD TO THINK THAT THE PERSON YOU LOVE LOVES SOMEONE ELSE...SOMETIMES LIFE CAN BE SO SELFISH. BUT WE HAVE TO GIVE. LIFE IS LIKE THAT...AND WE JUST HAVE TO LIVE...
thanks for listening! im just in one of my superduperlyexajsupercalifrafilistic senti moments!
whew. thats a relief.
love yawl.
carla
CARLA"S THOUGHTS
There are nights when i just can sleep and i have to think and write about things i think about. this night is among many others when i just had to jot something down and share it with my closest friends...you...naturally. so what is this thing all about? nothing really...but i think im overly in love with things...errr...people...err....person...im sure you know him. the real deal is i like him but liking slash "crushing" on him made me realize a lot of things...about life and loving and other senti things like that. first...i learned that you cannot make everyone like you. different people have different choices and you won't always be the choice that the other person will make. we just have to accept that losing is a part of life...we just have to bear with it...second...i learned that there will always be people who get in your way...you may be annoyed or pissed off at them but they will always be there trying to make everything harder for you....but hey...these people make our life "exciting" right? you don't have to do anything about it...because you can't do anything about it anyway...these people will forever be there...annoying you...bugging you...making you jealous and stuff like that...third...i also learned that loving (syet ang corni) can be such a wonderful experience....gives you a new perspective on life....inspiration...and eagerness to start a new day everyday....being in love makes you feel important or beautiful or just simply happy because just the thought of having someone you like being near you is enough to sustain you for the rest of the day....but then (here's the sad part) you find out that there's no hope in being together...and you have to accept the truth...that there will never be anything between th etwo of you....and that's ok....thats part of life....the sea is vast and there are lots of fishes waiting to be caught....though your head tells you to move on...your heart is left behind on the person whom you gave so much time and attention to. thats ok...time heals all wounds...everything must move on...sure as the sun brings the sunrise...I will always have the memory of liking that person and when the day comes that I am completely over him, i think ill just laugh my head off...but the memory will always remain...o my god....this is getting so silly....im sure you are laughing already....i sound like a lovesick idiot....it doesn't matter...i really am....hehehe....im still thinking of something.....oh....this one is from my profile in friendster...i also wrote it....hehehehehe.....SOMETIMES, LIFE CAN BE TOUGH. YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO LEARN AND UNLEARN TO LOVE PEOPLE...BUT ITS ALWAYS HARD TO FORGET...ITS ALWAYS HARD TO THINK THAT THE PERSON YOU LOVE LOVES SOMEONE ELSE...SOMETIMES LIFE CAN BE SO SELFISH. BUT WE HAVE TO GIVE. LIFE IS LIKE THAT...AND WE JUST HAVE TO LIVE...
thanks for listening! im just in one of my superduperlyexajsupercalifrafilistic senti moments!
whew. thats a relief.
love yawl.
carla