Enough is ENOUGH!!
For 2 and half years, i think i have already got my share of happy moments by being in love, sexually active and caring to someone i know is worthy at that particular moment. This day is just one of those days that i said, "enough is enough" and would always go back and just can't move on. But then again, this day i promise is different!!! Today, its for REAL. For real and the ending of me and Jihad Barhouche... he had found his happiness, maybe long before i found out the truth and maybe long before i have met him..He had just been someone in my life that would pass and needs to be passing in those years i have felt the mystery and magic of the intangible emotion and unexplainable happiness of being crazy and unconditionally in love to this asshole who made a big difference in my life, from all the sexual fantasies to crazy, silly road fights and bed flirtings... i can say its not that bad-- he made his contribution and had been a great instrument of God by molding me to be the Woman i am supposed to be and yes, i would be that best woman God wants me to be.
While am writing this, i am really in such a tiny pain- it was not the first time i felt this for him, Though it was so different when you just saw the person you care for and madly inlove with just caring and loving someone who is definitely not you-- even if it was just in a photo.. As what the old song goes.. " am all out of love, am so lost without you, i know you were right--believing for so long!!"
It was a farewell to him and a goodbye to me,,this is just one of those days, were i need to use my reserved energy pack to move and TRULY carry on.. But this time, it would be a different road i am taking and with a different style and strategy-- it wouldn't be the same way as it was before.. coz this time, God is with me, Jesus will protect me and the Holy Spirit will guide me to that one man whose been looking for me,patiently waiting and ready to shower me with his unconditional love that God has given us,,, :)
Good bye Jihad Barhouche, i still wish you happiness and the love i gave you is true,genuine and everlasting as a friend...However.. i chose now to give more to someone who is worth the reserved energy i have kept!!!
While am writing this, i am really in such a tiny pain- it was not the first time i felt this for him, Though it was so different when you just saw the person you care for and madly inlove with just caring and loving someone who is definitely not you-- even if it was just in a photo.. As what the old song goes.. " am all out of love, am so lost without you, i know you were right--believing for so long!!"
It was a farewell to him and a goodbye to me,,this is just one of those days, were i need to use my reserved energy pack to move and TRULY carry on.. But this time, it would be a different road i am taking and with a different style and strategy-- it wouldn't be the same way as it was before.. coz this time, God is with me, Jesus will protect me and the Holy Spirit will guide me to that one man whose been looking for me,patiently waiting and ready to shower me with his unconditional love that God has given us,,, :)
Good bye Jihad Barhouche, i still wish you happiness and the love i gave you is true,genuine and everlasting as a friend...However.. i chose now to give more to someone who is worth the reserved energy i have kept!!!