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wowowow. i just read an entry i wrote 1 year ago...and it's so weird. Everything is different. Everythign has changed. My junior year was extremely hard. not only school wise but everything was tough on me this year. Me and Michael broke up and I had to deal with a whole lot of reality. We fought so much. But the thing is, I still love him. And we talk every single day. I don't know if i'll ever be able to completely let him go. I mean he is my friend right now and that's what i treat him as but we still say I love you when we say goodnight. And we still say i miss you randomly. I have gotten so close to Natalie and Lindsay and all of my other friends since me and Michael broke up on April 4th. I can't believe we broke up two months ago. It's crazy how time flies. I had to deal with several girls who were all over him. It upset me a lot and I think i might have passed a phase of depression. Nothing seemed right. Everythign was wrong, it was all wrong. He brought light into my life and then it was gone. And he was fine with it. And I think that's what hurt most. That he was fine with it and he was moving past me faster than I could grasp. Everything was changing right before my eyes. But anyways...he graduated and I played at graduation and I cried when I saw him in his cap and gown. I can't believe I won't walk with him down the hallways again. I can't believe I won't talk to him in the morning before school starts. He's going to Perimeter now instead of GC&SU since he didn't get the HOPE scholarship. He's moving to Madison which is about 45 minutes away. I'll hopefully get my license soon and car. I got officer.. :) and I got 5 A's and 1 B this semester :) isn't that great?! at least I had those two things to look forward to. But yeah the end of this year was SO hard. Goodness. i'm just glad that it's over..kind of.
Today is June 7th and it's summer :) I'm so very excited. I"ll be a senior soon and band camp will be coming up and I won't have to do block or anything. It's gonna be a lot of fun and I"m really excited to see what the future has in store for me. I think me and Michael are going to keep in touch. I didn' treally at first, because we kind of sepearted....but...we still talk everyday like I said earlier. I don't know whatwill happen. I think what is most likely to happen is we'll just stay friends. I wish things were different but they aren't and some things are just beyond your control.
So the Fallout Boy Concert is next Thursday. :D im excited. Ummmmmm let's think of something else that has happend. Oh yeah. I DEFINATELY found out who my true friends. And I have come across a few physcos. I"m ont going to list any names here but there's this one kid who called me their "best friend" and went totally ballistic on me. He told crazY lies. like honestly who does that? he lied about his sister getting in a car accident and breaking her ribs. He lied about moving to New Jersey. He lied about going to Nicaragua. I don't like him AT ALL. and he disgusts me. I've dfeinately lost him and I am completely fine with it. I don't need those kind of people in my life. I think the only guy that I trust with my life is MIchael. Honestly, I feel so safe with that boy. But um yeah I think it's safe to say that I have realize who my true friends are and who the people are that I want to be friends with.
Last night me and Lindsay went over to Tara's but before that we spent the whole day at the pool and i got so burnt. agh. but we spent the night at Tara's and so did Matt. It was fun, we danced around and acted crazy and got real hyper. W e went to bed about 1? I'm not sure. but woke up at like 10:30
And now I"m here. Listening to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. :D
Well geez, lots has been going on. I took the SAT and the ACT. I didn't do so hot on the ACT but im re-taking it on Saturday. I should prepare myself for that. I think I'm going to Michael's house to swim on Saturday also :) He's going to the beach on Sunday so i probably won't be seeing him for a while again. We don't see much of each other but I guess that's okay since we are just friends and all. Anyways.. I don't have much else to say
So i guess i'll be out of here :) ...nice updating. i'll try to do it more often.
goodbye & hope you're all having a good summer :) Idk who im talking to because im sure NO ONE reads this anymore. haha <3 Love
Today is June 7th and it's summer :) I'm so very excited. I"ll be a senior soon and band camp will be coming up and I won't have to do block or anything. It's gonna be a lot of fun and I"m really excited to see what the future has in store for me. I think me and Michael are going to keep in touch. I didn' treally at first, because we kind of sepearted....but...we still talk everyday like I said earlier. I don't know whatwill happen. I think what is most likely to happen is we'll just stay friends. I wish things were different but they aren't and some things are just beyond your control.
So the Fallout Boy Concert is next Thursday. :D im excited. Ummmmmm let's think of something else that has happend. Oh yeah. I DEFINATELY found out who my true friends. And I have come across a few physcos. I"m ont going to list any names here but there's this one kid who called me their "best friend" and went totally ballistic on me. He told crazY lies. like honestly who does that? he lied about his sister getting in a car accident and breaking her ribs. He lied about moving to New Jersey. He lied about going to Nicaragua. I don't like him AT ALL. and he disgusts me. I've dfeinately lost him and I am completely fine with it. I don't need those kind of people in my life. I think the only guy that I trust with my life is MIchael. Honestly, I feel so safe with that boy. But um yeah I think it's safe to say that I have realize who my true friends are and who the people are that I want to be friends with.
Last night me and Lindsay went over to Tara's but before that we spent the whole day at the pool and i got so burnt. agh. but we spent the night at Tara's and so did Matt. It was fun, we danced around and acted crazy and got real hyper. W e went to bed about 1? I'm not sure. but woke up at like 10:30
And now I"m here. Listening to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. :D
Well geez, lots has been going on. I took the SAT and the ACT. I didn't do so hot on the ACT but im re-taking it on Saturday. I should prepare myself for that. I think I'm going to Michael's house to swim on Saturday also :) He's going to the beach on Sunday so i probably won't be seeing him for a while again. We don't see much of each other but I guess that's okay since we are just friends and all. Anyways.. I don't have much else to say
So i guess i'll be out of here :) ...nice updating. i'll try to do it more often.
goodbye & hope you're all having a good summer :) Idk who im talking to because im sure NO ONE reads this anymore. haha <3 Love