when you scan the radio i hope this song will guide you home...

[carkass]

i have such a broken family. i was talking with ward, a regular at work, and, for some reason, i decided to tell him about james. (for those of you don't know, james is my older brother, who i haven't seen/talked to in four years..) i told him about how the last time we saw him he wasn't the brother i knew and had grown increasingly dependent on/

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[yrsuchariot]

I love that song soooo much. It's definitely my favorite from that album.

I've always found the idea of a person just walking away from their family to be so strange...

[suzys_poetry]

Carissa, First, thanks. You have reminded me of hope. And it makes sense more and more that James is in an abusive relationship. It may take him a little longer to figure it out, but I believe he will some day. Most people do, I think. One day, he will finally listen to the concerns of a friend, or that nagging inner voice, and he will come home, and we will be able to welcome him with open arms, and he will being his way to healing. I did love him. I do love him, as your brother, and as my close friend.
I imagine what it's like with the relatives of those missing people we keep reading about in the paper. How do they go on? How do they live a "normal" life, being incomplete? How do you move on, when there is no conclusion of what you're moving on from? Just this time of waiting. Waiting for them, waiting for you. Paused.