when i found out i started crying. and i surprised myself more than anyone. i guess i just never thought i had to worry about him. and i also kind of grew up with him. i mean, he's only a year older than me, 10 things i hate about you came out my first year of college, and the more movies i saw him in the more i saw him growing as an actor. i mean, he was amazing in brokeback mountain, and in ned kelly, and in his much overlooked minor roll in monster's ball. i guess i was just looking forward to seeing him in a lot more movies over the years. he was starting to become an actor i sought out. this is the most a celebrity's death has ever affected me. i am so sad for his little family. i know that him and michelle williams had broken up but still.