back from the dead

[carina_red]

well lookie who bothered to show up for the party! a blog post?! gasp! how long has it been since i have posted one of these? 2? 3 months? quite a few things have happened since then... now let's see...

so in that time:

• my grandfather died
• i turned 30
• i officially have stopped talking to my mother for good.
• adam (nate's childhood friend) killed himself
• nate and i almost broke up (on christmas none the less!) and he is now on probation. (i am sick of constantly telling him i feel unimportant, so if i have to say that again, i am moving out.)
• i had a miserable new year's eve.
• i did winter session which basically took up all of my time in January! all i thought about last month was poly-sci! boo!
• and as of today i am going vegan for at least all of Feb. i am also cutting out refined sugars and refined flours (as much as i can, i might cheat a bit here and there! ie: disneyland trip!) and no more beer drinking.

i think that pretty much is the cliff notes version of my past few months. to be honest i don't really want to get into it more then that. i haven't been myself for the past few months. i kind of feel like a shell version of the actual me. sometimes i just want to curl up into a ball and cry. the past few months have been really rough. i was actually thankful for winter session because i didn't have the time to think, i had to devote all my energy to the class and it was great. i may hate poly-sci, but god bless that class for tuning most of my brain out!