TO DO TO REGAIN MY SANITY:
1. Get the fuck out of Glee fandom before I kill something.
When I think about how worked up I get about other people's bullshit opinions about the characters, cast, songs, etc.... it is all so absurd. Sure, I have opinions about Glee. For starters, I think Ryan Murphy is insane, obviously living inside a bubble, and possibly unaware of the following terms, their meanings, and their relevance to making a decent television show: continuity, characterization, ensemble.
At the end of the day, though, I don't know Ryan Murphy. I don't know the cast. I don't know the crew. I don't know the producers. I don't know shit about who does what when, how, where, or why. So I have no basis to launch full out critiques every week.
I have given up criticizing the actors for the things their characters do. For maybe a week I was pissed at Lea for Rachel's behavior on the show. Why? Lea doesn't write the damn script. She has no influence over what Rachel does or says. And the same goes for the other actors. I think people won't separate the characters from the actors, which is silly and -- quite frankly -- immature. "OMFG kev mchal is such a msygonstic jerk wtf is wrong wit him" is your opinion, sure, but unless you actually know Kevin McHale (which I doubt you do), then it's a fucked up opinion. Start referring to the characters by their names, if you feel so strongly about it, and realize that the cast members are acting.
I haven't watched the second season of Glee yet, because I'm studying abroad and the Internet is screwed up half the time over here. However, I've been following tumblrs, communities here on LJ, etc. -- and I'm sorely regretting my decision to do that, and not just for the spoilers. Actually, I don't care if I get spoiled. Whatever. I just hate that I feel the need to lurk on tumblrs & LJ comms only to read people's opinions about a fucking TV show.
I know what I like and don't like about Glee. I like Amber Riley, and not just because she's black. I identify with her a little b/c I'm sort of struggling with my weight, and she believes in God and I like that about her too, and she has a fantastic voice.
That doesn't mean that I'm all gung-ho about Mercedes. I still think it was screwed up what she told Puck about Quinn choosing Finn as Beth's father. But I realize that Amber Riley and Mercedes are not the same fucking person. Maybe Lea Michele is a diva, I don't know and I don't care, but I won't go around hating on her because of something the character she portrays does.
My biggest complaint about Glee is the continuity. It seems like there's no real story arc, and every episode is written as a separate story, which is all well and good if you're writing a damn movie, but this is a TV show. Stuff needs to tie together.
Other complaints:
- If they're a glee club, maybe they should be, I don't know, actually practicing songs for upcoming competitions.
- I understand that there are main characters within the show. I get that. At the end of the day though, the show is called "Glee." One can only assume that refers to the glee club. And that refers to 12 individuals. (And Mr. Schuester, I suppose, but honestly, I've had just about enough of him.) So it would be great to see all of those individuals get story lines. I just may keel over from shock if Tina get a story line not centered around Artie/seeing Mike's abs/being an Asian vampire. Or if Jenna gets to sing a song sometime before 2012.
Mostly, though, I want the Glee writers/creators to sit down for a few afternoons in a row, get out a damn storyboard, and plot the damn show already. Don't just throw random shit in, invite random guest stars to perform said shit, and never mention any of it again. Because it is confusing, annoying, and it makes me want to rewatch High School Musical which -- for all its undeniable banality -- actually had a frickin plot.
Get it together, Mr. Murphy. As for Glee fandom, I don't even know what to say. I'm writing my big bang fic, and then I'm going to go back to watching the damn show without being a fandom groupie. This is the first show I've gotten so involved in fandom for, and it turns out that was a mistake on my part. I have enough problems; I refuse to become anymore emotionally invested in this show and this fandom. It is a problem when I read someone's fuckyeahgleesecret and I feel righteous anger at their fucked up opinion. I bet the cast members don't go around tumblr stalking and feeling pissed when someone says shit about that. Why should I feel so indignant on their behalf? I want to feel gleeful about Glee again, and if I can't, then I need to give it up. 65% of the time I only watch for the music, anyway.
This is my first rant in a long time. It was slightly therapeutic. Mostly, though, it just made me feel more pissed. Oh well.
Also, this rant has reduced me to cursing, which I'm trying to stop doing. Wonderful.
2. Decide whether or not to take LSATs.
Do I want to go to law school? What do I want to do with my life? Why don't I know by now? I need to know before I graduate.
Honest to God, I think I just want to get a decent job writing a column. But I want to make money more! Decisions, decisions.