first o' the semester
i realized i haven't posted all semester, and yet, i understand now why...ok, it could be because i'm busy, it could be because it started with winter tour then snow job prep then my parents were here then midterms...but i think it's really because i couldn't post anything as good as this til now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBXf9rdyJKM
a 10 yr old boy doing the queen of the night aria from magic flute, to summarize.
things have been good, much more cogent and at peace after midterms. i am finally getting to appreciate my having taken only 4 classes this semester, and damn, it's good. my room is not as clean as it could be, but i'm doing all my reading (imagine!), going out much more, sending things in the mail and getting all the financial aid stuff/scholarship letters accounted for in a timely fashion so there's no last minute scramble in which i wonder if i'll be able to still go here each semester (i can always do the rich kids' laundry as workstudy right? :).
i can't complain, although lately there've been more of those 'lack of companionship'-driven thought patterns than usual (what an academic way to put it). the last lyric of a friend's voice recital makes better sense: "I have some light, I want to mingle it with yours." the absence of a person on the receiving end of that statement doesn't really bother me much, which is probably a problem; i mean, it's a little disconcerting, but i'm not doing much to change it. who knows if i even know my own type, if i've never had to go ask them out myself? this realization calls for many offers of coffee, i think; and it's not like there are so many straight ones here, so hey, it might be worth a try to work on my batting average (jk..kinda). more on this later if i encounter (and get the courage/decisiveness to pursue) someone who is presumably chill enough for me to ditch a drama-free single life & risk rejection etc etc.
like i said, things are good :) lately i'm all about reading and staying warm, coffeeshops and conversation, the good life.
love,
estelí
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBXf9rdyJKM
a 10 yr old boy doing the queen of the night aria from magic flute, to summarize.
things have been good, much more cogent and at peace after midterms. i am finally getting to appreciate my having taken only 4 classes this semester, and damn, it's good. my room is not as clean as it could be, but i'm doing all my reading (imagine!), going out much more, sending things in the mail and getting all the financial aid stuff/scholarship letters accounted for in a timely fashion so there's no last minute scramble in which i wonder if i'll be able to still go here each semester (i can always do the rich kids' laundry as workstudy right? :).
i can't complain, although lately there've been more of those 'lack of companionship'-driven thought patterns than usual (what an academic way to put it). the last lyric of a friend's voice recital makes better sense: "I have some light, I want to mingle it with yours." the absence of a person on the receiving end of that statement doesn't really bother me much, which is probably a problem; i mean, it's a little disconcerting, but i'm not doing much to change it. who knows if i even know my own type, if i've never had to go ask them out myself? this realization calls for many offers of coffee, i think; and it's not like there are so many straight ones here, so hey, it might be worth a try to work on my batting average (jk..kinda). more on this later if i encounter (and get the courage/decisiveness to pursue) someone who is presumably chill enough for me to ditch a drama-free single life & risk rejection etc etc.
like i said, things are good :) lately i'm all about reading and staying warm, coffeeshops and conversation, the good life.
love,
estelí