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I cut Mike's hair this weekend. The sad thing is, I kinda miss it now. I was always the one that didn't like it.. now part of me wants it back. lol. First we cut in into a mullet and he ran around the house. That lasted all of like two minutes before I made him let me cut the rest of it off. He looks good though. Either way is still completely cute. :)
I just got back from Mike's today. It was nice. That's the only way to explain it. There's always the really good and the really bad when I'm around Mike. I've decided that there's no way around it. I'm just fucked up. No seriously. In the middle of sex I broke down crying. No freaking joke. When you break down like that, you know there's something wrong with you. Its just like that whole time... all I'm thinking is, "What a slut you are Sara" Seriously, just pounding in my head was "Slut! Slut! Slut!" *sigh* I hate it, and I don't know how to fix it, or how long it would take even if I did know how.
I woke this morning next to Mike and it was the best feeling in the world. I don't know why, but there was just something different about it this time. He woke up at like five in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep and he kept hugging me and kissing me to wake me up. Usually I'm the one doing that. It was nice... there's that word again... nice. Wow, I have an awesome vocabulary. Anyway. He finally fell back asleep. I woke up around 9:30 and just looked at him. I lay there watching him sleep for a long time. I realized a lot. I love the guy more than anything in this world. Seriously. He's just... I dunno how to explain it. When I look at him, I really do see a future. I couldn't help but smile everytie I looked at him, or thought about him today. I just have this feeling.
Sorry things are all out of order. You know how I do.
I just got back from Mike's today. It was nice. That's the only way to explain it. There's always the really good and the really bad when I'm around Mike. I've decided that there's no way around it. I'm just fucked up. No seriously. In the middle of sex I broke down crying. No freaking joke. When you break down like that, you know there's something wrong with you. Its just like that whole time... all I'm thinking is, "What a slut you are Sara" Seriously, just pounding in my head was "Slut! Slut! Slut!" *sigh* I hate it, and I don't know how to fix it, or how long it would take even if I did know how.
I woke this morning next to Mike and it was the best feeling in the world. I don't know why, but there was just something different about it this time. He woke up at like five in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep and he kept hugging me and kissing me to wake me up. Usually I'm the one doing that. It was nice... there's that word again... nice. Wow, I have an awesome vocabulary. Anyway. He finally fell back asleep. I woke up around 9:30 and just looked at him. I lay there watching him sleep for a long time. I realized a lot. I love the guy more than anything in this world. Seriously. He's just... I dunno how to explain it. When I look at him, I really do see a future. I couldn't help but smile everytie I looked at him, or thought about him today. I just have this feeling.
Sorry things are all out of order. You know how I do.