Sisterly Love
I'm not super close with my sisters. We're tight but I'm just not the kind of person to call them up when I'm feeling lonely or in need of a hug. Perhaps this was why one of my sisters sounded so surprised to hear my voice on the other line this week saying "hey..." This week I feel like I need them. This week I want to go home and find my sisters there and hug them and laugh with them. I don't have much time these days to hang out with friends, and I'm looking for more than just friendship. I want my sisters.
Bad dreams always start a day off on the wrong foot. As I was saying just earlier today, when you wake up from a really disturbing dream you are already emotionally spent at the START of your day, and have nothing left to give for the rest of it.
Having had a large helping of food for the soul (both figuratively and literally), I expected that happy feeling to linger for a little while. But the happy moment lasted only as long as the moment itself, and I was back to my original mood of the day.
I think, with all that is going on, the stresses of everything I have to do in the next two weeks (not including anything to do with just school work in general/exams), I have to let go for a day. Today is a day for being sad and feeling a little hopeless. I give myself one day for this feeling and then tomorrow I must move on. There is only so long you can push a positive spin onto everything when you aren't a naturally positive person. After a while you just feel so tired, the positivity, the patience, the being nice... It all gets to you and you just need a day of rest to say, "hey! today sucks, and i'm going to wallow in that for a little while because this suckiness is not going away and i need to gather my strength so that i don't have to feel like this for the next chunk of time."
It's like pausing to catch your breath, except instead of breathing you get back to not being able to breath, so that tomorrow you can force yourself to.
I'm going home tomorrow night. I've never appreciated going home like I have this year :)
Good bye bad day, I won't see you tomorrow :D!
Bad dreams always start a day off on the wrong foot. As I was saying just earlier today, when you wake up from a really disturbing dream you are already emotionally spent at the START of your day, and have nothing left to give for the rest of it.
Having had a large helping of food for the soul (both figuratively and literally), I expected that happy feeling to linger for a little while. But the happy moment lasted only as long as the moment itself, and I was back to my original mood of the day.
I think, with all that is going on, the stresses of everything I have to do in the next two weeks (not including anything to do with just school work in general/exams), I have to let go for a day. Today is a day for being sad and feeling a little hopeless. I give myself one day for this feeling and then tomorrow I must move on. There is only so long you can push a positive spin onto everything when you aren't a naturally positive person. After a while you just feel so tired, the positivity, the patience, the being nice... It all gets to you and you just need a day of rest to say, "hey! today sucks, and i'm going to wallow in that for a little while because this suckiness is not going away and i need to gather my strength so that i don't have to feel like this for the next chunk of time."
It's like pausing to catch your breath, except instead of breathing you get back to not being able to breath, so that tomorrow you can force yourself to.
I'm going home tomorrow night. I've never appreciated going home like I have this year :)
Good bye bad day, I won't see you tomorrow :D!