i dun wanna grow up...
today was filled with a bunch of adult things. i am faced with adult decisions, adult commitments and all the other stuff that basically sucks and stresses me out. i had my job interview which went well i guess. i decided to wear black pants and a blueish turtle neck, i looked nice and professional. i have another interview on friday at an office place which im excited for because i love office work. ill probably go with a skirt on that day because its an office. so ive been trying to sell my car and get another because my car is an antique and i just dont find it dependable. its the coolest car ever but its not practical for my needs. my dad and i went car shopping tonight and he proposed that we keep my car since he would hate to see it go and get another somehow. i have about 1000 and my uncle is going to lend me the rest (about 2000) and ih ave to re-pay him over the summer which will require working my ass off and hopefully getting enough money. i have to figure out a budget so i can make $2000+ over the summer. at the moment it is really overwhelming and seems damn near impossible. but if i try hard and dont blow my money i could probably manage. and then i came home and and my mom and dad gang up on me about college and the SATs and a bunch of stuff i know i need to think about but i really dont feel like stressing about. math is really hard for me and my dad got on my case about getting a C when i have straight A's besides. all i can say is a i try but numbers just dont make sense to me no matter who explains it. they want me to take SAT prep courses which isnt a bad idea just another thing i dont want to consider. i wish i could go back to the ignorant bliss of being a five year old.