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Feel bad right now. I got humiliated in front of my friends this afternoon. I played the strong one, like the humilitaion didn't hurt me, but it actually did. Hard to see someone despising you, besides, in front of your friends, besides,while your friends are laughing. Not in a bad way because they think it didn't get me. But it did. And now I'm hurt whereas I shouldn't be hurt for this f**king thing. I shouldn't go on that level. But I'm more sensitive that I pretend I am. I'm not that strong. And it sucks. It really does.