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when i couldn't get what i want, i cried. Loser eh? or some spoilt brat? People say you reap what you sow, efforts pay off, laadeedaa. Well, why don't all those apply to me? Face it, life's a bitch. It's either that bitch gives it to you or make you die in despair. All or nothing. Life sucks.
I cried and cried. In the toilet of course. Because i don't wanna go out there and let the whole school laugh at me. The way i felt it, it's like the whole school got an A while i drown in my B. Everywhere i go, people are screaming, hugging, laughing, jumping up and down. I can't even cry in comfort in the toilet. People walk in and start talking about how well aj did and there is a high percentage of As and if someone got a B, it's really bad. (yes, she really did say this word for word) After they walked off, i cried even more. Couldn't call my friends either, because naturally, they all got their A's. How could i go and spoil their good mood? So, with nowhere to go and nobody to look for, i just went alone to the toilet.
Well, i did cry in front of a few friends and i have to apologize for being so weak and not being able to hold my tears in. Sorry dudes. I must have spoilt your mood eh? But then, they went out to eat lunch after i went home, so i guess i didn't really spoil their mood either. HA. Imagine the shock my QM must have felt when i went up to him with non-existent puffed-up eyes to ask him to open the guitar room for me so i could grab my guitar and escape home. lol. naturally, i pon-ed guitar. There really wasn't any choice. I couldn't even talk intelligently to my friends. I babbled like a babbling idiot. But before going home i had to muster up enough cheerfulness to show them i'm alright (sheesh, like i am)
Well, that's the story of the year. Clap won't ya?? So in conclusion, i got a freaking low-life B while the fucking bastard kind of a free-rider in my group got an A. Life's unfair, the ultimate ultimatum.