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i should really write on here when i am happy.....but the thing is when i am happy i guess i dont feel the need to let things out.....so im guessin i use this journal to let my anger, frustration, sadness, etc out. but then you all are going to think im a dark and gloomy person and i never have anything positive to write....but im actually not. i am a pretty happy person that i feel no need to be stuck at a computer saying how happy i am...but for some reason when i am sad i do feel the need to sit at this comp and write about it. Which to me is pretty SAD! lol but yea as i am writing this i am not entirly happy today... i guess becos of last night! i guess i feel that i have been pretty tolarant about certian things that have been done the past week or more and the one time that i speak up about it and get fed up and upset is the one time that i feel as though well maybe if i didnt express how i felt then maybe someone wouldnt be soo distant from me and everything would be the same happy and lalala! but it is not anymore cos i got upset and didnt want to accept things. but i guess that if i just do that then in the long term im going to be upset about it and not slightly majorly! i dunnnnnnoooooo i just dont want to be ignoring the fact that i dont like something but then feel as though that if i do certian things will happen after i do and things wont be the same anymore. There wont be happy moments the next day, there wont be love in the air, etc.... ah well thats the consequence of feelings.
any way i got ball now so off i trot....
bye
any way i got ball now so off i trot....
bye