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[caredundone]

things are going so well. i am drama free for the most part. well my personal life is drama free. danielle's dad died a couple weeks ago...and it is so tragic...i don't have a lot to say about it because i'm exhausted by everything surrounding the whole situation of it these past few months but yeah. i feel bad for danielle... and worse because she felt i wasn't really there for her through it all...and the thing is, I wanted to be there. i just didn't know how to be. she would tell me the progress report of his cancer- how sick he was today and whether he was home or in the hospital and iw ould listen but then she'd say she didn't want to talk about it and what do you say to someone who's parent is dying? "it'll be okay?" it won't be. i just didn't know how to be there for her. and i didn't call her enough. i didn't know how to act. so i guess i was a little distant.

and it led up to him dying. and when he died.... she didn't tell me. i found out from a friend of a friend of hers... which hurt my feelings. and i can't even call her on it because her dad just died. but my feelings are hurt.

i just try to let it go.

michael is the most amazingly wonderful supportive sexy fabulous special perfect loving man i could ask for. i am so in love i want to scream it from the rooftops like some cheesy movie. i'm so lucky to have him in my life. i've never felt like this before.

ron is finally starting to leave me alone...sort of. he keeps randomly popping into my life but it's less and less and my heart is mostly healed.

eh i never have anything to write when i'm happy.