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well i know i shouldn't post drunk but this has been an interesting months or 3. refer to a previous entry involving ron being taken away by the cops for rape and then fast forward to last night when after months of believing him that nothing happened i found out that he most likely did it and i feel dirty and angry for sticking with him even though i never felt right about the whole situation.
and i am lonely all the time. i resent that danielle has a boyfriend and i resent that i sleep alone and i resent that ron's friends that know about the break up hit on me and then there's the ones who don't know and i break the news and they play like they are so sympathetic towards me and then i feel like an asshole for throwing it all away but with every day that passes I'm more and more sure that i did the right thing.
i feel like a trainwreck though and i want to feel whole again.
i'm 24 and i have nothing to show for my life.
and i am lonely all the time. i resent that danielle has a boyfriend and i resent that i sleep alone and i resent that ron's friends that know about the break up hit on me and then there's the ones who don't know and i break the news and they play like they are so sympathetic towards me and then i feel like an asshole for throwing it all away but with every day that passes I'm more and more sure that i did the right thing.
i feel like a trainwreck though and i want to feel whole again.
i'm 24 and i have nothing to show for my life.