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a year ago i was a total different person.. i had just gotten my 1st kiss by a guy i now can't stand... i was getting ready for my first year of high school, i wasnt the oldest kid in school anymore but for some reason i didnt mind. What i didnt know is i was about to go into a huge rollercoaster of emotion and events that would change my life. My first highschool boyfriend was Zack. he was so great and wonderful but i got attached to him after a week.. that wa when he heard some rummors and then found ou about my suisidal background.. i tried to show him that i was a different person then but that was when i found out your old mistakes will come back to haunt you! so then i went out with Michael Clifton. We left school one day and he snuck me into his house and we made out and then a couple days later he broke up with me (which i found out later for another girl). I felt so used so then Homecoming came up and Michael's bestfriend Chad asked me to the dance to i went with him and that night he asked me out! We went out for 7 months and we got close! We shared ourselves with each other and came so close that it felt like he was part of me but then after a couple months i relized that he wasnt the type i wanted, we broke up but still talked. So then i went out with Michael Conrad. It seemed like we were the bigest couple that year i guess because EVERYONE knows Michael and is friends with him and i knew a lot of people from being so outgoing. we broke up after a month to get to know each other but he thought it was because of other reasons since i just went to prom with a friend. He made a big deal about me likeing my other friend so we didnt ever talk again. I thought about him a lot because i still liked him but a lot of my friend were happy i broke up with him. Then i met a guy from Kelly's school named Jon which ended up being a bad idea bc we broke up after 3 weeks. He told me he loved me and he never took the chance to get to know me.... now it has been a year and my life has changed dramaticly i have lost a lot like family members, friends, things a little more personal that only guys can take away, and i have also gained a lot like self esteem, and i gained friends too. As i go into a new year of my high school education i will meet new people, get into more drama, start and stop a few more fights, and date a couple more guys, but in the end i will be a different person from when i went into high school and even a different person as i am now... but it will be for the better....