well---god damn......
hey there....
i havent updated in forever....
im just killing time.here at riversides library....
i just got off from work...got out early...not a 12 hour shift today as usual.yay.for those of you who dont know i work at the huge ass dupont chemical plant in belle doing maintence and drum operations....
but i might have a job with republican energy makeing 1100$ a week soon.....too bad i wont have a life and i wont exist if i get it.not like that fucking matters right?
anyways im bandless now....working on putting another one together.
alot of stuff has went down since the last time ive updated this....alot i dont feel like talking about.
the only real good news i have is that i have a girlfriend whos good to me who ive been seeing for a while......mrs. sandra hill.things are going good but i treat relationships different ever since my last one with kristan.relationships just have lost thier magic they used to once hold with me.....but then again alot of things have.
plus ive rideing bmx more.....
in other news im selling some of my musical equipment to buy another truck.which is also good news.....
hit up my cell phone to see what im sellin.590-2328
anyways....im turning into a different person.i guess this kind of shit happens.
im a hell of a alot more responsible now....but now im real uptight and i am becomeing more of an ass-hole every day.people and friendships mean alot less to me now.and my "family" doesn't really mean much either.but i still love puffy ofcourse.
but yeah....im liveing in my house i payed taxes for and im counting the days until may so i can pay my unlce to GET THE FUCK OUT so i can live alone....without drugs and crackheads......and i can FINALLY EAT MY OWN FUCKING FOOD BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE EATS THE SHIT THAT I PAY FOR.
responsibilities a bitch....
i mean-now that im wiser.....there are so many things that i regret with money and wasteing my time on certian people ect.....
its just lately-i feel so stressed out...so angry....so fucking violent.
like its hard for me to control myself now.like i get so mad over the littlest shit.im alot more selfish now.and arrogant.i guess that comes with age.
if i could go back through time.....i would change so many things....do things so differently.....
and wishing you could could change the past is such a horrible burden to live with.....the only thing worse is when you cant change the future....
atleast i can do that.
i guess you could say im doing ok......but im still fucking miserable.
i havent updated in forever....
im just killing time.here at riversides library....
i just got off from work...got out early...not a 12 hour shift today as usual.yay.for those of you who dont know i work at the huge ass dupont chemical plant in belle doing maintence and drum operations....
but i might have a job with republican energy makeing 1100$ a week soon.....too bad i wont have a life and i wont exist if i get it.not like that fucking matters right?
anyways im bandless now....working on putting another one together.
alot of stuff has went down since the last time ive updated this....alot i dont feel like talking about.
the only real good news i have is that i have a girlfriend whos good to me who ive been seeing for a while......mrs. sandra hill.things are going good but i treat relationships different ever since my last one with kristan.relationships just have lost thier magic they used to once hold with me.....but then again alot of things have.
plus ive rideing bmx more.....
in other news im selling some of my musical equipment to buy another truck.which is also good news.....
hit up my cell phone to see what im sellin.590-2328
anyways....im turning into a different person.i guess this kind of shit happens.
im a hell of a alot more responsible now....but now im real uptight and i am becomeing more of an ass-hole every day.people and friendships mean alot less to me now.and my "family" doesn't really mean much either.but i still love puffy ofcourse.
but yeah....im liveing in my house i payed taxes for and im counting the days until may so i can pay my unlce to GET THE FUCK OUT so i can live alone....without drugs and crackheads......and i can FINALLY EAT MY OWN FUCKING FOOD BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE EATS THE SHIT THAT I PAY FOR.
responsibilities a bitch....
i mean-now that im wiser.....there are so many things that i regret with money and wasteing my time on certian people ect.....
its just lately-i feel so stressed out...so angry....so fucking violent.
like its hard for me to control myself now.like i get so mad over the littlest shit.im alot more selfish now.and arrogant.i guess that comes with age.
if i could go back through time.....i would change so many things....do things so differently.....
and wishing you could could change the past is such a horrible burden to live with.....the only thing worse is when you cant change the future....
atleast i can do that.
i guess you could say im doing ok......but im still fucking miserable.