the holidays
the holidays bring up such mixed emotions for me...I am so grateful for all that i have in my life, I have never been so fulfilled. But I feel guilty for not giving back more. I make up excuses about not having time, or the energy to get out there and make a difference for those who are less fortunate than I. Especially this year it is such an important element of the holiday season. I feel compelled to get involved but don't know where to start. I am takign a step in January, I am going to be trained as a rape crisis counselor/advocate.
Another thing that comes up for me (and most everyone) around the holidays is the mixed bag I feel about my family. i have brought Robb to a few of my family gatherings, but he has not endured the whole family yet. And frankly, they are embarrassing. I love each and every one of my family members...but I don't necessarily like them. A lot of them are bigoted and ignorant, and I know there will be comments about Obama, and other racist/antigay etc. rants. I don't really know what to do, if I should just walk away, or challenge them. My gut is to challenge anyone who's thinking is driven by bigotry, but at the same time it is a lot of frustration for me, and really they aren't going to change a bit. Yet if I don't say anything, I feel like I am contributing by being passively racist. I dunno, I just hope that being that it's the holidays people will be in good moods and not feel the need to make stupid remarks...but that is highly unlikely. I guess I will hide in the basement iwth the kids like I always do. My relatives are also super judgemental of where i am in my life...ok yeah I am still in school, whatever. It took me a while to figure out what I wanted, but I found it, I love it, and it doesn't matter how long it took me to get here. I am so proud of myself, and have loved being on my journey to get where i am, I never want to stop growing as an individual, I live to be on the journey.
I am having trouble in the work dept. I feel I am being taken for granted, my clients do not consider that I need teh income they provide to LIVE OFF OF. I don't make much to begin with b/c I am working P/T b/c of school, but when they cancel the day I was supposed to work, I am SOL. so what do I do? I know I should be guranteed a certain amount of money per week, but since I already set the precident that they can call off whenever, I feel like it is too late to say something. I am in the process of trying to get new clients to care for, but in the mean time I don't want to rock the boat b/c I need the money. Any ideas?
On a totally seperate and fun note, I made homemade gifts this year. It has been a lot of fun. Although making cookies for a month straight has been detrimental to my waist line. As soon as the holidays are over I need to get back on track...actually I am goign to get a head start and go work out. =0) Happy Holidays!
Another thing that comes up for me (and most everyone) around the holidays is the mixed bag I feel about my family. i have brought Robb to a few of my family gatherings, but he has not endured the whole family yet. And frankly, they are embarrassing. I love each and every one of my family members...but I don't necessarily like them. A lot of them are bigoted and ignorant, and I know there will be comments about Obama, and other racist/antigay etc. rants. I don't really know what to do, if I should just walk away, or challenge them. My gut is to challenge anyone who's thinking is driven by bigotry, but at the same time it is a lot of frustration for me, and really they aren't going to change a bit. Yet if I don't say anything, I feel like I am contributing by being passively racist. I dunno, I just hope that being that it's the holidays people will be in good moods and not feel the need to make stupid remarks...but that is highly unlikely. I guess I will hide in the basement iwth the kids like I always do. My relatives are also super judgemental of where i am in my life...ok yeah I am still in school, whatever. It took me a while to figure out what I wanted, but I found it, I love it, and it doesn't matter how long it took me to get here. I am so proud of myself, and have loved being on my journey to get where i am, I never want to stop growing as an individual, I live to be on the journey.
I am having trouble in the work dept. I feel I am being taken for granted, my clients do not consider that I need teh income they provide to LIVE OFF OF. I don't make much to begin with b/c I am working P/T b/c of school, but when they cancel the day I was supposed to work, I am SOL. so what do I do? I know I should be guranteed a certain amount of money per week, but since I already set the precident that they can call off whenever, I feel like it is too late to say something. I am in the process of trying to get new clients to care for, but in the mean time I don't want to rock the boat b/c I need the money. Any ideas?
On a totally seperate and fun note, I made homemade gifts this year. It has been a lot of fun. Although making cookies for a month straight has been detrimental to my waist line. As soon as the holidays are over I need to get back on track...actually I am goign to get a head start and go work out. =0) Happy Holidays!