"...... the only thing that stays the same is change...."
Well I've been busy as usual, and its not going to stop until the end of the year. So I'd better get used to it. Lol. My mind and body are being run down, it just never stops. Except at night, but then I'm still doing homework or thinking and gettin stressed out. Yay, sounds like fun huh?? NOOOOOPE not really.
I want this year to end and next year to begin, I'm ready to get out in the real world, and start working for a living, and go to college. I want all that to be here NOW!!!! haha. I have no fear, I'm nervous, but not scared. I'm excited!!!
I hope to over the summer, save up enough money and get a car of my own. That would be awsome.
I called Hannaford tonight, right now they don't need any help. I called Old Navy, and the lady said that she will check a few things and give me a call back. I don't really know what she has to check but she has to check something. Its been 2 or 3 months and I don't have a job, I've been going crazy. I can't stand it any more!!! Well I'm going to have to huh?
today was mommys birthday, I couldn't get anything, I know it doesn't really matter to her, but still I feel bad cause I couldn't get anything.
"...Deep in my heart
Save from the guards
Of intellect and reason
Leaving me at a loss
For words to express my feelings
Deep in my heart
Look at me losing control
Thinking I had a hold
But with feelings this strong
I'm no longer the master
Of my emotions."
-Tracy Chapman.
"Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight...."
"I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard."
"Hey Mr. Grumpy gills, when life gets you down you know what you've got to do...just keep swimin', just keep swimin', just keep swimin' swimin' swimin', what do we do we swim swim swim..." lol
Paz y Amor!!!
p.s-"The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations."
-Eli Khamarov.
I want this year to end and next year to begin, I'm ready to get out in the real world, and start working for a living, and go to college. I want all that to be here NOW!!!! haha. I have no fear, I'm nervous, but not scared. I'm excited!!!
I hope to over the summer, save up enough money and get a car of my own. That would be awsome.
I called Hannaford tonight, right now they don't need any help. I called Old Navy, and the lady said that she will check a few things and give me a call back. I don't really know what she has to check but she has to check something. Its been 2 or 3 months and I don't have a job, I've been going crazy. I can't stand it any more!!! Well I'm going to have to huh?
today was mommys birthday, I couldn't get anything, I know it doesn't really matter to her, but still I feel bad cause I couldn't get anything.
"...Deep in my heart
Save from the guards
Of intellect and reason
Leaving me at a loss
For words to express my feelings
Deep in my heart
Look at me losing control
Thinking I had a hold
But with feelings this strong
I'm no longer the master
Of my emotions."
-Tracy Chapman.
"Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight...."
"I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard."
"Hey Mr. Grumpy gills, when life gets you down you know what you've got to do...just keep swimin', just keep swimin', just keep swimin' swimin' swimin', what do we do we swim swim swim..." lol
Paz y Amor!!!
p.s-"The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations."
-Eli Khamarov.