Finally, a good use for insomnia
I'm having another one of my delightful insomnia attacks (although I'm not sure if it's an insomnia attack so much as I've actually been getting good amounts of sleep these past few weeks and my body doesn't know how to handle it). Usually when I get these, I just lounge arround and watch TV until I feel ready to sleep. Or sit in bed for several hours, stubbornly willing myself to go to sleep. Occasionally I'll try to get some writing done. Tonight however, I seem to have found the perfect fit for my insomnia: clearning. I've been meaning to do some spring cleaning but haven't been able to motivate myself to do so. I figured since I was up anyway, might as well do a few things. Forty minutes of not so hard work and the apartment is clean(er). I feel productive.
Tomorrow I go back to work at SNL after having two weeks off. I'm having mixed emotions. These past two weeks have been really good for me. I feel like I'm finally getting into New Year's Resolutions I never made. I'm trying to treat myself nicer in every way. Not only have I actually been making it to the gym on a regular basis, but I've been making time to do weights while I'm there, something I haven't done in a LONG time. Instead of calorie counting, I'm just trying to eat healthy. I've given up drugs (although that's for the anheuser-busch drug test, not so much for myself). For a while this meant I was drinking a LOT more. After having one of the worst hangovers of my life after a night at the dreaded China-wine, I'm trying to cut back on that too. And by cut back, I mean drinking to get buzzed and have fun rather than "GETTING HAMMERED WOO-HOO"! That being said, I'm still trying to relax and enjoy my last few months as a college student and as a New Yorker. That's not so hard to do...then again it never has been for me.
I'm trying to write every day - whether it be for school or for myself. I've been talking to Jessi several times a week, which I think has been really good for both of us. Most importantly I guess, is that I'm trying not to get upset over things I can't control. That was my real New Years resolution. I've come to realize that I can either choose to let these things eat away at me, tear me apart, or I can be upset about whatever it is and use that energy for something positive. One of the most empowering experiences of my life last semester was when I wrote a rant about what happened to Jess and performed it in my Cabaret performance. I got all the anger and emotions I've had inside for so long and I put them out there. And I let other people in. It was so hard to go through with, but in the end, I felt relief from the situation that I didn't know was possible. I want to try and do things like that more often, whether it be about Jessi or Dan or whatever.
And I love SNL (although I'm having MUCH less love for certain internship-coordinators), but it's much harder to do all these things when I'm spending all of my life there. But I want to try and place a priority on keeping these good habits now that the show's starting again. I guess only time will tell. At least I know that this time when we go back, it's only for two weeks (not three) and once it's through, I'm going back to STL for a few days of much needed family/friend time, then off to Cali to do some Budweiser interviews and apartment hunting. It should be an interesting next few months.
Tomorrow I go back to work at SNL after having two weeks off. I'm having mixed emotions. These past two weeks have been really good for me. I feel like I'm finally getting into New Year's Resolutions I never made. I'm trying to treat myself nicer in every way. Not only have I actually been making it to the gym on a regular basis, but I've been making time to do weights while I'm there, something I haven't done in a LONG time. Instead of calorie counting, I'm just trying to eat healthy. I've given up drugs (although that's for the anheuser-busch drug test, not so much for myself). For a while this meant I was drinking a LOT more. After having one of the worst hangovers of my life after a night at the dreaded China-wine, I'm trying to cut back on that too. And by cut back, I mean drinking to get buzzed and have fun rather than "GETTING HAMMERED WOO-HOO"! That being said, I'm still trying to relax and enjoy my last few months as a college student and as a New Yorker. That's not so hard to do...then again it never has been for me.
I'm trying to write every day - whether it be for school or for myself. I've been talking to Jessi several times a week, which I think has been really good for both of us. Most importantly I guess, is that I'm trying not to get upset over things I can't control. That was my real New Years resolution. I've come to realize that I can either choose to let these things eat away at me, tear me apart, or I can be upset about whatever it is and use that energy for something positive. One of the most empowering experiences of my life last semester was when I wrote a rant about what happened to Jess and performed it in my Cabaret performance. I got all the anger and emotions I've had inside for so long and I put them out there. And I let other people in. It was so hard to go through with, but in the end, I felt relief from the situation that I didn't know was possible. I want to try and do things like that more often, whether it be about Jessi or Dan or whatever.
And I love SNL (although I'm having MUCH less love for certain internship-coordinators), but it's much harder to do all these things when I'm spending all of my life there. But I want to try and place a priority on keeping these good habits now that the show's starting again. I guess only time will tell. At least I know that this time when we go back, it's only for two weeks (not three) and once it's through, I'm going back to STL for a few days of much needed family/friend time, then off to Cali to do some Budweiser interviews and apartment hunting. It should be an interesting next few months.