Ive been losing so much time...

[carebear714]

i dont know what to do... i cant seem to balance my time between my friends and joe. im at school all day, granted im at classes for most of that, but i still feel like im losing all my friends. but i love spending every night with joe. and i have no desire to go to the club or get trashed anymore. there are at least two or three nights a week that i spend in my room until like 10 or 11, too. and i go out with my friends at least once a week. but i still feel like theyre all thinking 'she spends all her time with her boyfriend'. i dont know. i dont want to spend any less time with joe but i want to spend more time with my friends. and i feel like they're mad at me, which makes it worse. i barely talk to maggie anymore, and it makes me so sad because she's my best friend here. and megan. megan's one of my best friends here, too. and i miss staying up until 1:30 or 2 in the morning talking about absolutely nothing important. and then i think, well i could spend one or two nights a week in the dorms. but then nothing happens that night or everyone goes out... i hate this.

on a nonwhinning note: im excited for the rodeo saturday night!!!!!!!!!! i wish i could find my cowboy hat.
and im SUPER excited for spring break. destin, florida. march 5th-12th. 15 days!!!