The show must go on...
So I've decided when I'm famous, I want a plaque on my door that says "There's no business like show business."
Gearing up to read another 50 plays so I can hopefully choose a scene to direct. I don't know why I'm getting so hung up on a 15-minute scene that isn't going anywhere. Maybe because I still need to prove to myself I can do it. To prove to the department I can direct one of their shows. To prove to myself that I do belong in the theatre. Lately I've been worrying.
It's all going by so fast, too fast. As things look now, I will be working on at least 9 shows during this academic year. That is, from August-May. And am trying to decide what professional theater I want to work with over the summer and next year. It's all so odd!! I'm worried I'm going to overdo it, but I also want to make sure I grab every opportunity. Because, what if I turn down a show that I think will be a lot of work and it turns out that director had connections to every theater in NY? I mean, I'm exaggerating, to an extent. But this is also what I'm being told by everyone.
But, what if I do this, and then hate working in the theater? I asked Kate, my Production Manager and bigtime mentor, and she told me that I'm lucky in that I will be able to get a job doing whatever I want. It's true, I could go to grad school in almost anything. Or go work abroad. I think maybe though, I'm even more scared that I DO love what I'm doing. It just seems too easy. I mean, don't get me wrong, working in theatre is never, ever easy, but it's just falling right into place. And Quendi told me that the fact that it falls into place so easily is a sign I'm meant to do it. But I don't know.
Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love all these things I'm doing. People think I'm out of my mind. But really, I get depressed when I'm NOT doing a show. I don't know what to do with free time.
This is boring, I apologize. Much love to everyone!!
Gearing up to read another 50 plays so I can hopefully choose a scene to direct. I don't know why I'm getting so hung up on a 15-minute scene that isn't going anywhere. Maybe because I still need to prove to myself I can do it. To prove to the department I can direct one of their shows. To prove to myself that I do belong in the theatre. Lately I've been worrying.
It's all going by so fast, too fast. As things look now, I will be working on at least 9 shows during this academic year. That is, from August-May. And am trying to decide what professional theater I want to work with over the summer and next year. It's all so odd!! I'm worried I'm going to overdo it, but I also want to make sure I grab every opportunity. Because, what if I turn down a show that I think will be a lot of work and it turns out that director had connections to every theater in NY? I mean, I'm exaggerating, to an extent. But this is also what I'm being told by everyone.
But, what if I do this, and then hate working in the theater? I asked Kate, my Production Manager and bigtime mentor, and she told me that I'm lucky in that I will be able to get a job doing whatever I want. It's true, I could go to grad school in almost anything. Or go work abroad. I think maybe though, I'm even more scared that I DO love what I'm doing. It just seems too easy. I mean, don't get me wrong, working in theatre is never, ever easy, but it's just falling right into place. And Quendi told me that the fact that it falls into place so easily is a sign I'm meant to do it. But I don't know.
Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love all these things I'm doing. People think I'm out of my mind. But really, I get depressed when I'm NOT doing a show. I don't know what to do with free time.
This is boring, I apologize. Much love to everyone!!