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A private journal entry.
Merlin I miss you Hannah. And I feel fucking useless here doing nothing. Even if I could to do something, I wouldn't know what. I don't know how you're going to feel when you come back, oh yes, Hannah my love, I know you'll be back, knowing all I did was work through my misery. I've been working so much I got that promotion I wanted. I should be happy, shouldn't I? I can see how your eyes would sparkle when I tell you, how happy for me you would be. But I can't have that. Not now. Not while you're away from me.
The last time we talked you were so worried, so sure something was going to happen. Yet, at the same time, you were sure you shouldn't be afraid for your life. He's my father, you said. You were so sure. I know I was scared enough for the both of us. I didn't know then what I would do if I lost you, and now that I have...
I'm going to help find you, my love. I promised Susan I wouldn't let anything happen to me. I won't. I have to be here for you when you get home. That doesn't mean I can't do anything. I just need to figure out what.
Just hold on, Hannah. Susan will find you. And when you come home, I'll be right here waiting for you.
Merlin I miss you Hannah. And I feel fucking useless here doing nothing. Even if I could to do something, I wouldn't know what. I don't know how you're going to feel when you come back, oh yes, Hannah my love, I know you'll be back, knowing all I did was work through my misery. I've been working so much I got that promotion I wanted. I should be happy, shouldn't I? I can see how your eyes would sparkle when I tell you, how happy for me you would be. But I can't have that. Not now. Not while you're away from me.
The last time we talked you were so worried, so sure something was going to happen. Yet, at the same time, you were sure you shouldn't be afraid for your life. He's my father, you said. You were so sure. I know I was scared enough for the both of us. I didn't know then what I would do if I lost you, and now that I have...
I'm going to help find you, my love. I promised Susan I wouldn't let anything happen to me. I won't. I have to be here for you when you get home. That doesn't mean I can't do anything. I just need to figure out what.
Just hold on, Hannah. Susan will find you. And when you come home, I'll be right here waiting for you.