Dec 02, 2006 17:58
I have never realized before how dependant people really are. It seems as though nobody can stand to be alone. They "need" someone else, in order to be happy. I have noted this tendency especially in women who are single on the holidays. I have always like dto be alone, and have no need at all, to be with someone else. I can be alone the rest of my life and be fine, because I don't need someone else to make me happy. But, if there is someone to keep me company, which there is at the present time, then i am happy with that as well.
I also don't understand certain dynamics of relationships. Like these women who want to do crazy adventure things on dates, creative different things. I don't mind doing that sometimes, but it almost seems like some of these women are doing it for the sake of being different, and not because they really are enjoying spontanaety, but just fitting the mold of what they have read in a hundred magazines about relationships. I don't really want to go on a mountain top and paint the sunset. I don't want to drive around the city and just look at stuff. I don't want to do random stuff like dancing in the park in the rain or whatever, just to seem spontaneous or to make an interesting memeory for you to tell your girlfriends later on. I am a fairly simple person, and I just like to do simple things. Go to the movies, or drive to a store. Normal stuff. Doing that supposedly random stuff that isn't really random, doesn't make me any happier, all it is, is different. Why is different good? Everytime i experience different, it feels the same as repetative stuff, it's just different is all. there's no "awe" attatched or anything like that.
This goes back to my tv thing, in an earlier blog. I notice all these people who need to experience, they need to see the beauty of otyher countries, they need need need. But then after you visit them, it becomes normal and is just a memory installed in your brain. it doesn't take you to some new level or awareness or make you happier, or do anything for you at all except add another memory. My point is, it's all relative. The most experienced person in the world, is on the same level as the most non-experienced person in the world, because everything is relative. It doesn't matter.