long lost spoken words.
i need some direction. im afraid, but i want to pull closer, and i dont know what to do. theres things that im not sure of, and dont know if theyre right. i dont know anymore what to do or what to believe in. i need to know how to handle this situation.
you know i miss you. guess its too much to resist making it harder. who knows. maybe the world has collapsed and you actually feel what you say. maybe you mean what you dont say.
i could never say enough.
some people just need not know all of what consumes me. cant get there yet. its simple. but way too simple. theres got to be something wrong with that glossy image if somethings ever easy for me. (i do not mean that in a depressing self-low way. i choose hard ways. its more entertaining and yeah, safe). for me at least.
I miss my home.
I dont even know where that is anymore...
but im missing it.
we've forgotten 'bout the passion
livin' day to day
kept our dreams locked down inside
chokin' on a lifetime
never take a chance
wake up one day wishin' you tried..
why is it that the moment affection is offered, love embraces us no questions asked...that we run away for fear that theres some alterior motive? its like something is handed to us, but we automatically challenge it and accuse it of being the opposite of what it should be.
pathetically, i admit im one of these people. as soon as i give myself to the best relationship that could ever take place..that would change everything graciously..i distance myself. i push it away. neglect, fear, and excuses kick in. for my life i cant seem to grasp onto something that will make me stay. i blame the navy for this. moving around has made me a genius in picking up and leaving at the drop of a coin (well, at least top 10). say it dont matter what side it lands on, if its someone elses dime. either way i look at it..its given me an excuse to run away. now ive perfected the technique. i cannot, for my very sanity, seem to shake it off.
you know i miss you. guess its too much to resist making it harder. who knows. maybe the world has collapsed and you actually feel what you say. maybe you mean what you dont say.
i could never say enough.
some people just need not know all of what consumes me. cant get there yet. its simple. but way too simple. theres got to be something wrong with that glossy image if somethings ever easy for me. (i do not mean that in a depressing self-low way. i choose hard ways. its more entertaining and yeah, safe). for me at least.
I miss my home.
I dont even know where that is anymore...
but im missing it.
we've forgotten 'bout the passion
livin' day to day
kept our dreams locked down inside
chokin' on a lifetime
never take a chance
wake up one day wishin' you tried..
why is it that the moment affection is offered, love embraces us no questions asked...that we run away for fear that theres some alterior motive? its like something is handed to us, but we automatically challenge it and accuse it of being the opposite of what it should be.
pathetically, i admit im one of these people. as soon as i give myself to the best relationship that could ever take place..that would change everything graciously..i distance myself. i push it away. neglect, fear, and excuses kick in. for my life i cant seem to grasp onto something that will make me stay. i blame the navy for this. moving around has made me a genius in picking up and leaving at the drop of a coin (well, at least top 10). say it dont matter what side it lands on, if its someone elses dime. either way i look at it..its given me an excuse to run away. now ive perfected the technique. i cannot, for my very sanity, seem to shake it off.