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the following entry is not meant for anyone in particular... i simply needed to get something off my chest in the most indirect way possible. enjoy
it has recently been brought to my attention that a certain friend you may or may not know, (i will simply call him John hereafter), is not at all the person I thought he was. instead of being a great person, he is really just a manipulative.
i am not afraid to say now and forevermore that i am a bitch. that i do and say mean things, most often without thinking, simply for amusement sometimes or to make myself feel better. w/e, that's the way i am, and i would venture to say most people are the same way. if you think you aren't GET OVER YOURSELF. for people who i respect and care for however, i am generally completely loyal and non judgmental of all of your faults. until the very end of my relationship with shea, i never once assumed that any of her actions were bad, and loved her unconditionally. therefore, nothing, and i mean NOTHING, hurts me more than knowing that this trust has been broken, and that i've been lied too.
until tonight, i had always vested my full trust in john, believed all that he told me and never once questioned his motives. i have now become enlightened however to your wickedness. i should've known all along that all your stories and our talks were lies. i simply don't what to think of you anymore...
i honestly have more to say, but i neither the time nor the energy to do. right now, i've got a lot on my mind however, this is not the last time ill speak of john. happy passover to all
it has recently been brought to my attention that a certain friend you may or may not know, (i will simply call him John hereafter), is not at all the person I thought he was. instead of being a great person, he is really just a manipulative.
i am not afraid to say now and forevermore that i am a bitch. that i do and say mean things, most often without thinking, simply for amusement sometimes or to make myself feel better. w/e, that's the way i am, and i would venture to say most people are the same way. if you think you aren't GET OVER YOURSELF. for people who i respect and care for however, i am generally completely loyal and non judgmental of all of your faults. until the very end of my relationship with shea, i never once assumed that any of her actions were bad, and loved her unconditionally. therefore, nothing, and i mean NOTHING, hurts me more than knowing that this trust has been broken, and that i've been lied too.
until tonight, i had always vested my full trust in john, believed all that he told me and never once questioned his motives. i have now become enlightened however to your wickedness. i should've known all along that all your stories and our talks were lies. i simply don't what to think of you anymore...
i honestly have more to say, but i neither the time nor the energy to do. right now, i've got a lot on my mind however, this is not the last time ill speak of john. happy passover to all