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Today was the first day that I've been able to breathe in such a long time. After school, Cars, Laurel and Grant came over and they schooled me in ping pong for the first time ever, and then we went to Carson's house and chilled for a little bit but it sucked cause I didn't feel like we had enough time. We never have enough time. Everything is always so rushed because I am so busy now and he has night school and I don't know we are good and all that but I miss him so much.
So after that he took me home and I went out to sushi with the girls and when I got back I was watching this movie with my dad and after it, I seriously had to sit and think about what I had to do tomorrow and I realized that it was a weekend and I was finally able to relax. I have been on my toes for the past two weeks. I can't even remember what I've done lately, and the only way that I was able to remember today was writing in that dumb journal in which I didn't even finish. Oh, and that literature log that I worked on for like 500 hours and stressed out myself so much for... seventy fucking two... what the fuck. And then not 5 minutes after she gave me that grade, she gave me a detention for chewing gum. Who does that? Fuck Belski and her motherfucking bullshit. I hate her. I hate that school. It is not a "healthy haven for teens" it is a jail for adolescents who are not allowed to move. No Brains Catholic School is what it should be called.
I think another problem I've been having is that I'm just so frustrated all the time and what used to be my let-go was smoking and chilling with my girls and being around my boys and it's so far gone now. I can't even think about Orlando anymore, I am so removed. And I called John the other night and he didn't even talk to me. It's so wierd cause I hated when he gave me attention and now I crave all that he gave me and I miss it. I miss him, he was my best friend ever. I don't know I'm going to bed, sushi gives me tummy aches.
We went on a retreat on Tuesday, it was real lame...
Softball has been okay lately....
So after that he took me home and I went out to sushi with the girls and when I got back I was watching this movie with my dad and after it, I seriously had to sit and think about what I had to do tomorrow and I realized that it was a weekend and I was finally able to relax. I have been on my toes for the past two weeks. I can't even remember what I've done lately, and the only way that I was able to remember today was writing in that dumb journal in which I didn't even finish. Oh, and that literature log that I worked on for like 500 hours and stressed out myself so much for... seventy fucking two... what the fuck. And then not 5 minutes after she gave me that grade, she gave me a detention for chewing gum. Who does that? Fuck Belski and her motherfucking bullshit. I hate her. I hate that school. It is not a "healthy haven for teens" it is a jail for adolescents who are not allowed to move. No Brains Catholic School is what it should be called.
I think another problem I've been having is that I'm just so frustrated all the time and what used to be my let-go was smoking and chilling with my girls and being around my boys and it's so far gone now. I can't even think about Orlando anymore, I am so removed. And I called John the other night and he didn't even talk to me. It's so wierd cause I hated when he gave me attention and now I crave all that he gave me and I miss it. I miss him, he was my best friend ever. I don't know I'm going to bed, sushi gives me tummy aches.
We went on a retreat on Tuesday, it was real lame...
Softball has been okay lately....