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i daydream about dropping out of school when i'm feeling this overwhelmed. i'm only capable of listening to urgent riffs from 2001-2003 when i feel like this. i hate that tomorrow i'll wake up and the first thought on my mind will be that how i'm feeling right now really wasn't such a big deal. i'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted. i wake up feeling sick because i've had my period for half a month -- fourteen goddamn days -- and the cigarette burn on my pinky is still healing and still throbs. i can't be bothered with anything or anyone right now and i wish i could hide for a little while. my computer died on me tonight and i'm using amy's computer right now to write one big unchallenging platitude about gender, because psychology courses are just that -- platitudes, plain and tall.