"...Cause There's Just An Empty Space.."
”Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody’s heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go”
-Matchbox 20, Disease
So, things have certainly been…interesting/busy he last few days, which is why I haven’t updated lately.
The situation between Heather and me is still a bit uneasy. I hardly say anything to her, and look at her even less. It’s not because I’m mad or angry with her. I’m not. But I’m just not ready to really be the friend she wants from me yet. I need some time to get over things, and I don’t know how long that will be…
We kinda had little spats. Nothing major. She’s going through her rough time, confused on her life, and what she wants. And unfortunately, she felt she had to leave me behind to figure it out. But she also still loves me (just not “in love”) with me, and that’s throwing her off more and kind hurting me a little too. She told me she essentially wants things both ways. She wants the relation without the title.
And I just can’t give that.
I know she’s sorry she hurt me. And I know she didn’t do it intentionally (that’s been one of our many topics of discussion online when we do talk). And I think she’s regretting the choice she made. But I know she’s still confused, and has a lot on her mind…and honestly, I don’t know if I can take her back…If she hurt me once like this, who’s to say it won’t happen again? I fear that…
Even without those relationship issues (or lack thereof?), work is also wearing me down.
I have been working everyday since Jan 2nd. My next day off isn’t until this Thursday, but then I have those 4 days off, which will be nice. Why am I working so long?
Well, I switched with mizd_1. I worked her weekend (this one just past) and she’s working mine (this one coming up). All in all, to have the 4 days, I thought it worth it.
Although, this also leads into one of the bigger problems I’m having at work.
See, Mizd_1 and I switched thinking it wouldn’t be a problem. We told our supervisor, and what we were switching and we were told okay. I knew it wasn’t going to be an issue with me cause I knew I wouldn’t be getting overtime, but it was a nice little extra cash; 1.) to make up for having off on Jan. 1st, and 2.) it was just nice extra cash!
I didn’t think about Mizd_1’s work week in all honesty. It didn’t occur to me or I would have said something. But neither she nor our supervisor thought about it either.
Well, Saturday, when the store manager saw me there alone Saturday night, she threw a hissy I was working for Mizd_1, ranting I would get overtime and to prevent that, I was supposed to switch not only what days I’m working, but we were supposed to switch our off days too.
Well, that’s all well and good to tell us now, after the fact. We don’t get any employee handbooks to speak of. Nor did she or our immediate supervisor say anything about it to us. Mizd_1 has been there 6 months and me 3. First time either of us heard about it.
Either way though, I told the store Manager that I wasn’t getting overtime. I was at 38.5 hours. Perfectly fine. I was told that, trading off days as well as what we’re working is how it should be and she’ll have to bring it up with my supervisor because “she knows better”.
Whatever. I didn’t make the mistake. I didn’t know.
Well, I brought it up to Elaine (figuring it was gonna come up sooner or later, so I wanted to address it first so it’s out of the way).
Big mistake.
It was then we realized Mizd_1 would be into overtime and the supervisor I was going to have to work one of my days off.
W…T…H?
I told her I couldn’t, I made plans (plans to slack off and lounge; enjoy my 4 days off, but still, I did PLAN on it!). She didn’t like that and she later told all of us (me, Mizd_1 and “60 Minutes”) that we were making ourselves our own boss. That Mizd_1 and I weren’t thinking and that we basically should have known better, etc.
I told her that it wasn’t intentionally. We didn’t know and it was HER, the Supervisor, who said okay to what we did say. No comment to that really.
Seriously though, it irked the heck out of me that crap would even be tried. I have to say, I love the work. It’s fun and good opportunity for extra money. But I’ve never worked someplace where the people in general made me hate the place so quickly.
But, getting back to loving work, I have to say, the weekend was fun. Saturday was busy and I did decent on money. Sunday I was hoping for the same since it was me alone that day, but sadly, only 1 order. Didn’t do too bad today though which is good.
*sigh* I just wish the atmosphere could be better…
Getting AWAY from work now, nothing much else is going on. I rearranged my son’s room. Spare TV and his Xbox ar ein his room now and he loves it. Soon as I get my Wii, I’ll be putting his GameCube in there too.
I’m doing awesome on reading. Getting done at least 2 chapters a night, often times more on my book, DragonLance: Dragons of a Vanished Moon. I’m on page 305 of 548. Doing sweet! And I’m loving the book. Things are coming together nicely while still managing to twist and turn and make things unpredictable. Truly a wondrous book. I can’t wait till Terin can read the book as well.
You are Dr. Doom
Dr. Doom
50%
Apocalypse
45%
Lex Luthor
37%
Magneto
35%
The Joker
34%
Riddler
32%
Catwoman
31%
Mr. Freeze
29%
Juggernaut
28%
Poison Ivy
28%
Venom
27%
Dark Phoenix
23%
Kingpin
23%
Green Goblin
20%
Two-Face
20%
Mystique
16%
Blessed with smarts and power but burdened by vanity.
Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
I got the quiz form Alecto's LJ. I like it. Seems pretty accurate all things considered. Of course, it's somewhat easy to determine which questions will influence the answer you'd like, but ah well. Still fun.
That's about it for the night...things are just confusing me more and more as I type this and IMs come in, so I'm going...
You made somebody’s heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go”
-Matchbox 20, Disease
So, things have certainly been…interesting/busy he last few days, which is why I haven’t updated lately.
The situation between Heather and me is still a bit uneasy. I hardly say anything to her, and look at her even less. It’s not because I’m mad or angry with her. I’m not. But I’m just not ready to really be the friend she wants from me yet. I need some time to get over things, and I don’t know how long that will be…
We kinda had little spats. Nothing major. She’s going through her rough time, confused on her life, and what she wants. And unfortunately, she felt she had to leave me behind to figure it out. But she also still loves me (just not “in love”) with me, and that’s throwing her off more and kind hurting me a little too. She told me she essentially wants things both ways. She wants the relation without the title.
And I just can’t give that.
I know she’s sorry she hurt me. And I know she didn’t do it intentionally (that’s been one of our many topics of discussion online when we do talk). And I think she’s regretting the choice she made. But I know she’s still confused, and has a lot on her mind…and honestly, I don’t know if I can take her back…If she hurt me once like this, who’s to say it won’t happen again? I fear that…
Even without those relationship issues (or lack thereof?), work is also wearing me down.
I have been working everyday since Jan 2nd. My next day off isn’t until this Thursday, but then I have those 4 days off, which will be nice. Why am I working so long?
Well, I switched with mizd_1. I worked her weekend (this one just past) and she’s working mine (this one coming up). All in all, to have the 4 days, I thought it worth it.
Although, this also leads into one of the bigger problems I’m having at work.
See, Mizd_1 and I switched thinking it wouldn’t be a problem. We told our supervisor, and what we were switching and we were told okay. I knew it wasn’t going to be an issue with me cause I knew I wouldn’t be getting overtime, but it was a nice little extra cash; 1.) to make up for having off on Jan. 1st, and 2.) it was just nice extra cash!
I didn’t think about Mizd_1’s work week in all honesty. It didn’t occur to me or I would have said something. But neither she nor our supervisor thought about it either.
Well, Saturday, when the store manager saw me there alone Saturday night, she threw a hissy I was working for Mizd_1, ranting I would get overtime and to prevent that, I was supposed to switch not only what days I’m working, but we were supposed to switch our off days too.
Well, that’s all well and good to tell us now, after the fact. We don’t get any employee handbooks to speak of. Nor did she or our immediate supervisor say anything about it to us. Mizd_1 has been there 6 months and me 3. First time either of us heard about it.
Either way though, I told the store Manager that I wasn’t getting overtime. I was at 38.5 hours. Perfectly fine. I was told that, trading off days as well as what we’re working is how it should be and she’ll have to bring it up with my supervisor because “she knows better”.
Whatever. I didn’t make the mistake. I didn’t know.
Well, I brought it up to Elaine (figuring it was gonna come up sooner or later, so I wanted to address it first so it’s out of the way).
Big mistake.
It was then we realized Mizd_1 would be into overtime and the supervisor I was going to have to work one of my days off.
W…T…H?
I told her I couldn’t, I made plans (plans to slack off and lounge; enjoy my 4 days off, but still, I did PLAN on it!). She didn’t like that and she later told all of us (me, Mizd_1 and “60 Minutes”) that we were making ourselves our own boss. That Mizd_1 and I weren’t thinking and that we basically should have known better, etc.
I told her that it wasn’t intentionally. We didn’t know and it was HER, the Supervisor, who said okay to what we did say. No comment to that really.
Seriously though, it irked the heck out of me that crap would even be tried. I have to say, I love the work. It’s fun and good opportunity for extra money. But I’ve never worked someplace where the people in general made me hate the place so quickly.
But, getting back to loving work, I have to say, the weekend was fun. Saturday was busy and I did decent on money. Sunday I was hoping for the same since it was me alone that day, but sadly, only 1 order. Didn’t do too bad today though which is good.
*sigh* I just wish the atmosphere could be better…
Getting AWAY from work now, nothing much else is going on. I rearranged my son’s room. Spare TV and his Xbox ar ein his room now and he loves it. Soon as I get my Wii, I’ll be putting his GameCube in there too.
I’m doing awesome on reading. Getting done at least 2 chapters a night, often times more on my book, DragonLance: Dragons of a Vanished Moon. I’m on page 305 of 548. Doing sweet! And I’m loving the book. Things are coming together nicely while still managing to twist and turn and make things unpredictable. Truly a wondrous book. I can’t wait till Terin can read the book as well.
You are Dr. Doom
Dr. Doom
50%
Apocalypse
45%
Lex Luthor
37%
Magneto
35%
The Joker
34%
Riddler
32%
Catwoman
31%
Mr. Freeze
29%
Juggernaut
28%
Poison Ivy
28%
Venom
27%
Dark Phoenix
23%
Kingpin
23%
Green Goblin
20%
Two-Face
20%
Mystique
16%
Blessed with smarts and power but burdened by vanity.
Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
I got the quiz form Alecto's LJ. I like it. Seems pretty accurate all things considered. Of course, it's somewhat easy to determine which questions will influence the answer you'd like, but ah well. Still fun.
That's about it for the night...things are just confusing me more and more as I type this and IMs come in, so I'm going...